ADDERALL ( amphetamine salts )
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I was diagnosed about a year ago, with ADD. I have also had depression and traits of bi-polar disorder for quite a few years now. Adderall XR has helped me through school becuase i just couldn't concentrate, whether i was upset or not. If i had been in a misunderstanding with a friend, for example, id spend the whole class period dwelling on it or breaking into tears about something. Also, if i was thinking of hundrends of different ideas for a drawing or various random thoughts , like what i should do when i get home or what events are coming up this month. My grades had begun to sink becuase the time i was spending in racing thoughts was supposed to be spent focusing on the learning matter. Unfortunatly i have abused the medication at times and fear overdose (perscribed 30 mg but sometimes take 2 doses). What i don't like about this medication, is that i seem to talk alot more and have a horrible crash if i don't take it, where i could sleep the entire day i feel so exhausted. I also had a sort of seizing withdrawl one time, that wasnt too good but i drank some water and went to sleep. I like how it seems to keep me awake in the morning/day even if i only get 5 hrs of sleep a night. I also like how it supresses my appetite becuase i hate wanting to eat alot and the confidence also brings a positive side. I'm afraid of the negative effects this could have on me later, but at the same time, i still want to keep taking this medication [probably already addicted]. If it were to be banned, id understand it being a safe decision but at the same time, i hope its never removed.

I take Adderall, it's awesome!!! The effects, yes I'am kinda worried about the long- term effects. I wish I could quit, but its so easy to find, if I didn't have people offering me one or two 30mgs every day, it wouldn't be so bad, but seriously I think i am addicted to adderall. If i don't have it, im anticipating it, if i do have it, im worried about how im gonna get more. Adderall consumes my life and I wish i could quit. One more thing, when your up all night because you took it to late, The best thing to do is play Rock Band. When on Adderall, this is the all time funnest game.

Unfortunately, I do not believe I have ADD, though I sometimes find myself totally oblivious to what's going around me, due to my mind being somewhere else. (I'm sure a lot of ADD-lacking people have this problem.) I was in class with a buddy of mine, passing notes, this past Wednesday, and we begun to talk about Adderall. He, of course, has it prescribed to him because he indeed has ADD. He was talking about how he had sold some of it to some friends of his because of finals week coming up. I made a quirky comment, something like Well hey, I would've taken some for free! He took me literally though, of course, and made it a point to tell me that he had sold all but what he needed for 20mg tabs, but he had over 60 5mg's. He added that he wouldn't mind bringing some in for me for free. Being the foolish kid I am, I gracefully accepted, and the next day he brought in 15 five mg's in an aspirin bottle. The morning after before school, after being advised to swallow the pills rather than snort them, (it being my first time), I took eight all together. I swalled three at first, four about forty-five minutes later, and then the last one around half an hour after that. It took less than an hour to kick in. As I had just sat down on the bus at around 7:05a.m., I began to feel extremely good. I was very happy, confident, excited, and focused. I also experienced a bit of time where I couldn't talk slowly. This fantastic feeling has lasted all day, and I'm still feeling it. Despite all of this, however, I feel bad for taking the drug. I am woefully anticipating the speed crash, and I'm unsure about my feelings about taking more. I bought 10 5mg's from the same kid for $5, and have it in mind to save them for finals. They only equal 50mg, and I'm not sure whether or not it's a smart move. I'm unsure as to how much I need to take to receive the full effect as I did today. (I'm not sure if I'll get the same feelings with say, 20mg, as I did with 40.) I don't know whether or not to take 25mg two times, (for the two finals I will have the most trouble with), to spread it out to around 15mg a day for each final, (possibly enough to have me focused and confident without the druggy side effects?), or to just not take them at all. I realize this is a crime and it is probably one of the stupidest things I could do, though I can't help but give in to it. I do not want to get addicted to Adderall, let alone any drug. Especially not at 15 years old!