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I was diagnosed about a year ago, with ADD. I have also had depression and traits of bi-polar disorder for quite a few years now. Adderall XR has helped me through school becuase i just couldn't concentrate, whether i was upset or not. If i had been in a misunderstanding with a friend, for example, id spend the whole class period dwelling on it or breaking into tears about something. Also, if i was thinking of hundrends of different ideas for a drawing or various random thoughts , like what i should do when i get home or what events are coming up this month. My grades had begun to sink becuase the time i was spending in racing thoughts was supposed to be spent focusing on the learning matter. Unfortunatly i have abused the medication at times and fear overdose (perscribed 30 mg but sometimes take 2 doses). What i don't like about this medication, is that i seem to talk alot more and have a horrible crash if i don't take it, where i could sleep the entire day i feel so exhausted. I also had a sort of seizing withdrawl one time, that wasnt too good but i drank some water and went to sleep. I like how it seems to keep me awake in the morning/day even if i only get 5 hrs of sleep a night. I also like how it supresses my appetite becuase i hate wanting to eat alot and the confidence also brings a positive side. I'm afraid of the negative effects this could have on me later, but at the same time, i still want to keep taking this medication [probably already addicted]. If it were to be banned, id understand it being a safe decision but at the same time, i hope its never removed.

I take Adderall, it's awesome!!! The effects, yes I'am kinda worried about the long- term effects. I wish I could quit, but its so easy to find, if I didn't have people offering me one or two 30mgs every day, it wouldn't be so bad, but seriously I think i am addicted to adderall. If i don't have it, im anticipating it, if i do have it, im worried about how im gonna get more. Adderall consumes my life and I wish i could quit. One more thing, when your up all night because you took it to late, The best thing to do is play Rock Band. When on Adderall, this is the all time funnest game.

Unfortunately, I do not believe I have ADD, though I sometimes find myself totally oblivious to what's going around me, due to my mind being somewhere else. (I'm sure a lot of ADD-lacking people have this problem.) I was in class with a buddy of mine, passing notes, this past Wednesday, and we begun to talk about Adderall. He, of course, has it prescribed to him because he indeed has ADD. He was talking about how he had sold some of it to some friends of his because of finals week coming up. I made a quirky comment, something like Well hey, I would've taken some for free! He took me literally though, of course, and made it a point to tell me that he had sold all but what he needed for 20mg tabs, but he had over 60 5mg's. He added that he wouldn't mind bringing some in for me for free. Being the foolish kid I am, I gracefully accepted, and the next day he brought in 15 five mg's in an aspirin bottle. The morning after before school, after being advised to swallow the pills rather than snort them, (it being my first time), I took eight all together. I swalled three at first, four about forty-five minutes later, and then the last one around half an hour after that. It took less than an hour to kick in. As I had just sat down on the bus at around 7:05a.m., I began to feel extremely good. I was very happy, confident, excited, and focused. I also experienced a bit of time where I couldn't talk slowly. This fantastic feeling has lasted all day, and I'm still feeling it. Despite all of this, however, I feel bad for taking the drug. I am woefully anticipating the speed crash, and I'm unsure about my feelings about taking more. I bought 10 5mg's from the same kid for $5, and have it in mind to save them for finals. They only equal 50mg, and I'm not sure whether or not it's a smart move. I'm unsure as to how much I need to take to receive the full effect as I did today. (I'm not sure if I'll get the same feelings with say, 20mg, as I did with 40.) I don't know whether or not to take 25mg two times, (for the two finals I will have the most trouble with), to spread it out to around 15mg a day for each final, (possibly enough to have me focused and confident without the druggy side effects?), or to just not take them at all. I realize this is a crime and it is probably one of the stupidest things I could do, though I can't help but give in to it. I do not want to get addicted to Adderall, let alone any drug. Especially not at 15 years old!

I am 22 years old and I've been taking aderall for about almost 3 years. At first I took it just to cram for big tests or finals and then I started taking it everyday. My concentration got so much better. I found it to make me study for 12 hours or more straight! And having very in depth conversations. I am not the person to really study...even in class I would answer questions and speak in class. And people always looked at me weird when I did because I am that shy girl that does not talk a lot. My grades even got better. It also gave me motivation to do many things such as cleaning, exercising, bettering my life, etc...I played softball and I would take it before practice and just run around and be so energetic! I also lost some weight because I would lose my appetite to eat. We called it The Aderall Diet. People would comment to me that I am losing weight so that made me want to continue taking it more and more. My mother got prescribed to the medication some how so it's very easy for me to get. But now I feel like I depend on the medication way too much. And my body is so tolerant to the medicine and certain kinds of aderall just does not work! I pretty much have to take 4-5 pills (30mg.) before I feel the high I felt in the very beginning when I started taking them. Don't worry, I do not take them all at once. But it's getting pretty bad...I crave the aderall and if I do not have any I tend to get these mood swings that I just do not like. I am not a happy person when I am not on them. Unless I am around a lot of friends. But about 50% of the time means we're drinking so my mind is off aderall. I wish my mother would just hide the drug from me. That is sad to say but it's so true. I hate hate hate depending on the drug. But I just can't stay away from it. I say to myself, ok now tomorrow I am going to try and not take any! Well as soon as I wake up not even 2hrs later I take 2 or so. If I do not take them I tend to just get in this blah mood and just not want to do anything! I saw on MTV once a show True Life - I'm addicted to Aderall and I about flipped! So many of the side effects that I have they had. But at least I know I am not the only one that is having problems quitting aderall. Does anybody have a good solution on how to quit? I think it will be way too hard for me to just quit cold turkey!! This is not even half of my story...I just want the addiction to quit...NOW!

It says to use proper grammar and full sentences. This shouldn't prove too much a problem, for as of now I am geeked on Adderall's ugly cousin, Metadate. It has similar effects when snorted. Only it's easier to find, and not as powerful. Also, it lasts about half as long. Still, it's similar to Adderall in feeling: Increased alertness, increased concentration, and a sped up sex-drive.

I've been on amphetamine salts for as far back as I can remember. Originally, they were prescribed for my ADHD, but as time went on I started to get it (the ADHD) under control. But I wasn't about to tell anyone. I loved the effect it had on my story writing. For the 7+ years I was on it, I must have written at least 30 items of fanfiction.

It's safe to say I'm addicted to Amphetamines. I tried to replace it with pot, but pot made me sick a few times, and it's getting really hard to find it. Adderall, well... all you have to do is ask the local ADD kid if he wants to make a few bucks. Or, if you're lucky, you're good friends with at least one person who's prescribed and won't mind throwing a few your way. Such was my case with my ex girlfriend. She would always bring me a few pills here and there.

I'd like to warn you all however, or at least those of you who aren't already using it recreationally, DO NOT START. NEVER TAKE ADDERALL UNLESS PRESCRIBED. Even then, I wouldn't recommend you take them because it's too easy to become addicted to the feeling, and dependant on the effects. I soon plan to get some help for this addiction.

Unfortunately, I do not believe I have ADD, though I sometimes find myself totally oblivious to what's going around me, due to my mind being somewhere else. (I'm sure a lot of ADD-lacking people have this problem.) I was in class with a buddy of mine, passing notes, this past Wednesday, and we begun to talk about Adderall. He, of course, has it prescribed to him because he indeed has ADD. He was talking about how he had sold some of it to some friends of his because of finals week coming up. I made a quirky comment, something like Well hey, I would've taken some for free! He took me literally though, of course, and made it a point to tell me that he had sold all but what he needed for 20mg tabs, but he had over 60 5mg's. He added that he wouldn't mind bringing some in for me for free. Being the foolish kid I am, I gracefully accepted, and the next day he brought in 15 five mg's in an aspirin bottle. The morning after before school, after being advised to swallow the pills rather than snort them, (it being my first time), I took eight all together. I swalled three at first, four about forty-five minutes later, and then the last one around half an hour after that. It took less than an hour to kick in. As I had just sat down on the bus at around 7:05a.m., I began to feel extremely good. I was very happy, confident, excited, and focused. I also experienced a bit of time where I couldn't talk slowly. This fantastic feeling has lasted all day, and I'm still feeling it. Despite all of this, however, I feel bad for taking the drug. I am woefully anticipating the speed crash, and I'm unsure about my feelings about taking more. I bought 10 5mg's from the same kid for $5, and have it in mind to save them for finals. They only equal 50mg, and I'm not sure whether or not it's a smart move. I'm unsure as to how much I need to take to receive the full effect as I did today. (I'm not sure if I'll get the same feelings with say, 20mg, as I did with 40.) I don't know whether or not to take 25mg two times, (for the two finals I will have the most trouble with), to spread it out to around 15mg a day for each final, (possibly enough to have me focused and confident without the druggy side effects?), or to just not take them at all. I realize this is a crime and it is probably one of the stupidest things I could do, though I can't help but give in to it. I do not want to get addicted to Adderall, let alone any drug. Especially not at 15 years old!

I am 15 years old and i am a freshman in high-school, today i took 4, 30 mg capsuls of adderall, and let me tell you...IT WAS AWSOME!!! i even beasted in my math class (which i have a 58 in) and i was calm and relaxed throughout the whole day. My legs were a little weak though, but my friends all praised me, because none of them have taken that many. But now i am seeing that it IS quite addictive cause all i can think about now is getting more of them!

When I was 15 years old I took 30mg of adderall for the first time given to me by a friend, I had no idea what it was or what the effects would be. During football practice every play I was in on and had the biggest boost of energy in my entire life and for no reason almost started crying. Looking back my addictive personality should have been obvious to me. Not more than a few weeks after this incident I went through all the hoops to get prescribed, I was put on concerta(ritalin) for a few months then told my doctor I was depressed to get prescribed Adderall. When I took it again, my heart rate was almost 200 just sitting and my state of mind was pure euphoria. When trying to quite taking them my brain feels like it's making absolutely no conncections and almost a primal urge to get the chemicals back in my body overcomes me. This led to abuse of other prescribtion and illegal drugs such as oxycotin, hydrocodone, and marijuana. Right now im in the depths of addiction wondering if I still have control or if the chemicals have etched out a permanent spot in my psyche.

Oh, I remember in high school everyone was so hyped about adderall. It helped you do your homework, made you more social, gave you energy, and put you on a dangerous no calorie no food diet. And barely any liquids. I saw it as teenage meth. I've been on adderall since I was 9 and it makes me TIRED and CALM and FOCUSED. If you get HIGH off of adderall you have either A) overdosed or B) DO not have ADHD. I like myself when I don't take my meds. That's when I become energetic, happy, social! It's so strange to me to see the effect it has on people. So many doctors are so quick to prescribe a very dangerous drug to nearly anybody who says school is hard. It's much more than that. You really can't understand unless you have the disease. I advise all you youngin's to stop before things get out of hang, and you keep chasing the original high but guess what? You'll never find it. You'll move to harder drugs like methamphetamine or coke. My friends don't even know I take it, because I KNOW they will ask me to sell it but guess what kiddos. That is a felony. It's a Schedule II controlled substance. Please, my friend died from overdosing on pain pills and drinking. Drugs are Drugs whether they be from the friendly neighborhood pharmacy or the crackhouse down on the lower east side. Best of luck to those addicted, it's a battle worth fighting, and if you are determined, and have the will-power you will succeed.

If this helps just one person not to get on Adderall, it's worth the time to write this. If you are thinking about taking it, or just taking it recreationally, please take time to read this because it's very important. I never imagined myself taking Adderall (I'm in my 30's and never taken drugs or medicine) but I'd heard about it and all the wonderful things it could do for people. I was afraid to take it because I didn't know how it would affect me so I stayed away from it, never actually considering that I'd have a chance to try it anyway. That is, until one day I ran into a guy I used to substitute for in high school. He had just started college and was doing really well. He'd struggled through high school and I told him I was proud of him for doing so well in college. He explained that he couldn't have done it without Adderall. I asked him how medicine could help him do so well in school and he told me that it was called the study drug and it seemed like everyone was using it in college. He said that he could get more done in a day with Adderall than he ever could in a week without it. I confided in him about what I'd been going through. I was having a hard time getting things finished. I'm a writer who works from home and I couldn't meet deadlines and the laundry was never caught up and my husband and son were always having to find their own dinner and in the mornings I was always tired because I felt so overwhelmed. He said that he knew how I felt because until Adderall he'd been overwhelmed too and almost dropped out of college. He gave me a couple of his and told me it would change my life. Reluctantly, I tried one the next morning. After my husband went to work and my son went to school, I took one (just a 10 milligram) and started my day. I put some laundry in the washing machine and started working in the kitchen when I felt this euphoric feeling that I had never experienced in my life come over me, slowly. I felt as if there wasn't anything I couldn't do. I cleaned the kitchen with enthusiasm. I finished laundry with a smile on my face ... the entire house was clean within 2 hours (including floors) and I began writing. By this time I was full of ideas, things that had never occurred to me before. I was in a writing zone without even trying. The hours flew by and that evening, I even had dinner ready for my family. I was like a completely different person and I actually liked it! I just didn't understand why I couldn't feel this way all the time, without the medicine. I took the other one the next day and it was the same result. I felt like this was how normal people felt but for some reason, I couldn't feel that way. I went to my doctor and explained what I'd done. I was honest with him and explained how tired and overwhelmed I'd been until I took the Adderall. Of course I got a lecture about taking other people's medicine but he told me that he'd give me a prescription of my own and he'd see me in a month to find out how it was working. For that month, my life was in order. I'd finished things I'd never had time or energy to do. I was getting my writing finished on time, I was cleaning out closets, I was becoming more social with people and I was happy. I had time for everything, most importantly, I had time with my family without feeling guilty about leaving things undone. I don't know what they thought about the change in me because I never told them about my medicine but eventually, my husband found out anyway. The doctor kept giving me the Adderall every month but I noticed that I needed more and more to feel what I'd felt from the beginning. When the medicine wore off, I became irritated and all I wanted to do was go to bed and wait until the next day when I could take it again. My entire life revolved around Adderall. I couldn't do anything without it. I couldn't write, I couldn't do my housework and I felt like I had the flu if I ever had to go a day without it. After taking it about a year and a half, I finally had to tell my husband because I was up to 40 milligrams a day (4 pills at a time) just to get the feeling I'd had in the beginning and I was running out of them quickly. The doctor wouldn't up my dosage because he knew that I didn't have ADD or ADHD. So when I ran out of them, I was seriously sick. I couldn't get out of the bed and I couldn't keep anything down ... my husband was afraid I had something horribly wrong with me. My husband is against medicine to begin with so he was very upset when he found out that I'd been taking the Adderall for so long. He told me to stop taking it and I tried, but I had a really hard time. I was so sick at times that he was afraid that something might happen to me. Finally he took me to the emergency room because my heart began racing and my face became really red ... he was afraid I was going to have a stroke. At the emergency room he explained about the Adderall and they said that I should go into a detox program to make sure that I was getting off of it safely. I was told that no one should stop any medicine suddenly and since I was taking such a high dose, I could be in danger. I thought that was kind of silly to go into a detox program, but I was told that it would make things so much easier. I agreed and I spent 2 weeks getting off the medicine by taking something that controlled my withdrawal symptoms. When I got home, no longer on my Adderall, I felt like a shell of my former self. I had no motivation ... I didn't want to do anything and I didn't care. It was summer and while my son was out with his friends and my husband working, I stayed in bed most of the time. I couldn't write because my ideas just weren't there. When I was forced to finally do any kind of housework, I would walk around like I was 90 years old. I cried all the time. It was as if the Adderall had taken away my happiness and drive. I didn't feel anything but emptiness and sadness. I tried to get things done, even simple tasks, but I would start something and I couldn't finish anything. It was horrible. I kept thinking it would get better but it didn't. For an entire summer, I stayed in bed only getting out of bed to do what I had to. Everything suffered, including my marriage, my relationship with my child and my job. When school started back, I knew I had to pull myself together. I had to get my life in order because my child needed me. He was starting high school and I needed to stay on top of things. I thought that if I just got up and did something, I would finally get back to my normal self. But I was wrong. It didn't help. Nothing helped. I was depressed but since I knew I'd never been depressed before, I knew that all I needed was Adderall. I tried to get it off my mind, but I couldn't. Finally around the holidays that year, when I couldn't take it anymore, I went back to my doctor and got back on the Adderall. He didn't know about the trouble that I'd gotten into with it so he didn't have any problems giving it to me again. Of course I didn't tell my husband because he would probably leave me. However, I have been more responsible with it and I only take it like I'm supposed to. I don't get the euphoric feeling anymore but I'm able to get my work done and I'm able to get out of bed without crying. I'm not a particularly happy person though, but I can live my life. I'm still writing, although not as well as I did before the Adderall, and I get my house clean, although it takes me an entire day to finish things and I'm taking care of my family. I just need the Adderall boost to help me. And it is only a boost since I'm only taking the 10 milligrams. I thought maybe it was just all in my head so I didn't take it one day and again, I couldn't get out of bed. So for the rest of my life, I'm going to have to take medicine and hide it from my husband. This is no way to live, but I don't see another way out. This is the price I'm paying for being overwhelmed. My life before Adderall was chaotic but it was manageable. Sure, there were days when I felt overwhelmed but when I look back it wasn't all that bad. I got caught up eventually and now that I think about it, I was usually behind because I was having fun. In the summer I took my son and his friends to the pool and we'd take family vacations but the thing I remember most is that I was happy. Being overwhelmed didn't mean that I wasn't happy. It just meant that I needed to take my time and do one task at a time. Now I can only do that with my medicine but now I'm unhappy. When you've never felt euphoria, you don't miss it. If I could do something over in my life, it would be to have never taken the Adderall in the first place. So maybe if you're reading this, you'll realize that no matter how bad things are, life could be worse. Just do your work without depending on medicine. It's simply not worth it in the end!

I used to take adderall whenever I could get my hands on hte stuff. I used to binge on these and stay up for a few days. I got addicted for the entire year of 2007. I would feel so great on them and so down and depressed when they were waring off. Then in january of 2008 something happened. I felt the left side of my body go numba and collapsed in my apartment. I got up imeadeatly but felt weak for a while. I thought I had a heart attack. I went to the hospital and they said nothing happened. they did numerous tests and such. I just had a panic attack. Ever since then, I have stoped doing drugs all together ( weed). I have devoloped a bad anxiety disorder and have gained alot of weight since then. I am in constant feer that I have damaged my body even though I have seen several cardiologist and they say nothing happened. Bottom line. this stuff is DANGEROUS!!!!! BE CAREFUL!!!!

Well my names Taylor,im from California. Im 15 and a sophmore I've been taking adderall for two months,and I already have problems. I go def here and there when im on it now but i didn't in the beging and I never eat anymore I've lost alot weight I use to weigh 140 two months ago now I weigh 110. Also i have pain all though my body,before it was fun being high but now its just painful.

All my friends have noticed how much Ive lost but now there saying im getting to skinny,and just this weekend I fanted for about 15 mins. It scared me badly because I could have easliy not woke up. I never want to be sober and I will do anything to get high. I stay up for at least 3 days tops, I usaully start hallucinating I hear people talking also the last time there was a voice saying I was going to die I scared myself and when I came home I talked to my parents,Im going to start going to Narcotics Anonymous. My dad ruined my life when he was on drugs,I was younger but it affected me alot even until this day. Im now following his steps,thats why im getting out before there's no ending to this. I have dreams,and this wasen't one of them.

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Yes, stay away from this drug-controlled narcotic that my son 20 yrs old was caught speeding in his car(late for work) with one pill and it is just starting the bail process of near $1000 to get him released until a court date-not only illegal ( class D felony posession) but read all the stories of addiction. Good Luck all.

I have ADHD and have been diagnosed for it many years ago. i have the classic symptoms always hyper, easily distracted and i truly mean easly. For example my math teacher mentioned the word robot when talking about how math applies to real life and for the rest of the class I was day dreaming about robots and people and future societies with robot butlers. this all happened about a month ago. i should probably mention that 19 and a sophmore in college. my doctor prescribed me adderall XR 30mg after a short stint with strattera whose only affect was make me sleepy. I almost failed out of college due to being unable to study or pay attention or even sit still for more than 20 minutes. So on my first day of taking the medicine i felt great. it took about 20 minutes to kick in. i felt like every thing was so simply and i laughed trying to thing why i didn't get it before. i also had 2 tests that day and a quiz. i literally got 100%'s on all the tests and quiz's. this drug truly helps me and is a god send. this only problems i have is that it can cause slight nausea, and completely kills your appetite. i only ate because i forced my self too. it also can cause insomnia or like in my case. make your insomnia get even worse. i went from an average of 5-7 hours of sleep a night to 4 max or no sleep at all. it also can have a nasty crash if you take it recreationally or in short bursts. you'll feel punch drunk, and completely drained for about 1-3 days. though if taking for actual medical purposes and prescribed by a doctor meaning your most likely taking it every day then you should have a minimal crash or non at all. make sure not to abuse it as it can mess with your heart and is highly addictive. fear is the only thing keeping me in check from abusing it. other wise it's truly an amazing medecine. though it has really kicked my insomnia into overdrive. no sleep in 4 and a half days was the longest period i had.

Im Woody and im 16 years old the first time i took adderall was half way threw freshman year. My best friend formor addict said i should try adderall with her, i did. i took one pill i didnt sleep for a day. A week later i took 7 threw out the day i didnt sleep for 2 days and wasnt able to get hard for 1 full week. that week was hell i didnt even feel like a man because i couldnt get hard and couldnt use my pee pee for anything but peeing. I havent used adderall for a while nowand i dont plan on doing it again. the feeling was good for awhile but its not all that great. DO NOT TAKE ADDERALL ITS NOT COOL!

I'm a college student. I always had problems with attention..I couldnt color a detailed picture because I would get lost in thoughts. In elementary school, I often got reports to my folks about me daydreaming etc. I'm not really hyperactive, though I dont like to stand in one place, I'd rather move around. I was REALLY against adderall..I was taking it a while and I had convinced myself that I had a heart attack! But I got an EKG and of course, my heart was fine.

Here is my rationale, my justification for taking adderall under a doctors care. Most people's mind wanders sometimes. Most people will get bored when they're doing something boring. However, clinically add people are on the far end of the spectrum, where these deviations from normal behavior are so frequent and uncontrollable that we are not able to function in society. I used to think that, because non-add people had the same effects as people with add while taking Adderall, that add was a made up disease. However, the fact is that normal people have exaggerated effects: they get high, cant sleep for days, etc. When I take it (only 10mg's for a 210 pound male) I get a little more focused. I can speak in complete sentences without losing my train of thought in the middle (this seriously happens to me, people always say I mumble because I stop thinking about talking halfway through). I was worried that my little OCD habits would get out of control with the adderall...indeed, they were amplified at first, but because adderall helps you to act rationally (add people can think rationally, but have trouble acting on it...kind of a pathological laziness!), I actually started ignoring things that made be OCD and only act on important things...it helps me to control my attention, and think slow enough that I can function in society! (no, I'm not saying it makes me stupider, which it did a little bit (I had to learn to get by without using my genius all the time, instead being more disciplined about studying, etc) in the beginning. It tunes your brain to what's going on around you, instead of random thoughts that float in.)

All in all, what I'm trying to say is that adderall is beneficial when prescribed by a doctor. I am willing to take it long-term because it has helped me be successful I improved my grades a lot...it wasnt all night cramming, but little things that added up to success. However, I do not recommend it to normal people to get high, because it probably has negative long-term effects on your brain...if you use adderall to stimulate what is naturally stimulated, your brain will stop naturally stimulating itself, and you will could become dependent on adderall!

Here's a different perspective. Mid 90's had bulimia - got over it (with new OCD tendencies introduced)and started working out. through the late 90's i would (3 times a day) take ephedrine, aspirin, and caffeine pill. Then I did steroids on top of that from 98 - 00. Once ephedrine was made illegal i switched to crystal meth for 1 year. every day except for the 3 day sleeping binges here and there. after i quit that - i went back to legal thermogenics every day like Xenadrine. Then I started adding Cocaine occasionally. To say i like to be 'sped' up is an understatement. I stopped ALL that in around 2005.

Come to now - I have anxiety, depression, OCD tendancies. ok fine. 20mg paxil per day for a few months. helps a little but sexual dysfunction. research says try Wellbutrin. I do. BAM. Next day - I have great energy like i haven't had in years - and anxiety is gone - it was great! that lasted for 2 weeks at 150mg of Wellbutrin. It was so good I asked for 300mg and started those. Within 2 days everything was gone. anxious again, no energy.

I went back to my 150mg Wellbutrin and nothing... I was so angry.

More research says Adderall for energy. I read all the horror and addiction stories. But I am not living forever with how i feel at the time - no way I can stay like that.

Get Adderall XR10mg. take it next morning with Wellbutin and BAM - everything is back! Energy, not anxious, confident. I was underwhelmed in the sense that it is nothing like real crystal meth, and to me - feels more like the come down of cocaine. but still - was feeling good!

For one week. then just nothing. I tried taking 20mg of Adderall and it was horrible. just made me sketchy and this time feeling like a bad come down from hard drugs. no good.

Appetite is not an issue for me since i am OCD about food - so even when i am not hungry i still eat my meals at the correct times etc... so i might lose weight or not, we'll see.

However - the adderall DOES greatly improve my strength at the gym. I still go religiously and have added 30 pound to my bench press that first week - and have kept it going.

SO as of tomorrow I think I will just try Wellbutrin again and see what happens. Anyways - I have the absolutely most addictive personalty in the world - i mean - my doctor had no reason to give me adderall and didn't want to but my 'inner fiend' came out telling him i used to have add at school when i was little etc.... i just needed to really see if it was as addictive as the web stories say - and for anyone that has done real meth for any long amount of time - it is not. So don't consider it a legal replacement.

I will continue to play with the doses as I did have a few weeks that were a total success and hope i can get that back...

If anything I will keep the Adderall for energy - like if i ever need to go dancing or some outdoor exercise - but otherwise it's not for me.

If you are selling your Adderal it is a big deal. It is one of the tightest control prescriptions, right up there with Tylox and Tylenol 4, and it has serious penalties. You now must surrender you Social Security number or DL# to even fill your script. Also, doctors must send in a photocopy of every script that is written for the month to the government as well as the pharmacies. ALSO, if you have an undiagnosed heart condition, it can kill you. It is call Sudden Death. It is now a requirement to have EKGs done to be prescribed this med to rule out any heart conditions. Just thought I would share this info.

i have finally made my mind for this drug! not to ever take it again! i mean it gives you this energetic feeling that you feel like your a king for 5 to 6 hours and you can pretty much do anything and noone can give you shit! but this thing will change your personality forever ... just remind yourself wen your on the crash how you feel like doing nothing and its like you have no personality...if you gonna take it in my opinion take a low dosage so you could feel it a little bit for studying or something useful and you wont crush as bad but this stuff kills eventually

My story is a bit different from other stories here at this site. The fact is, I don't have ADD or any medical condition that requires the use of Aderall or any drug use. In fact, I have a very healthy body and I'm an athlete of high speed races. That said, I have always been curios about drugs that increase performance. Amphetamine caught my attention as is it widely promoted that it increases energy and decreases fatigue. And actually it's very true. When I finally found Aderall from a Pharmacy that wanted extra money, I started with a minimal dose of 5mg just to see what happens. Well not really much, except that I think I had a restless night. Next morning, I decided to take full dose (which according to my internet research is 50mg divided into 2-3 doses) to see if it really back up its claims. And here it starts it all. I began to feel high (never used any drug or marijuana before for this purpose) and had an enormous energy feeling. Actually it wasn't just feeling, it was true. I remember I went that day to training and was able to do the training is half time I used to do. And I didn't even felt tired at all! Well actually that was what I always wanted, more energy and more focused. However, about 6 hours later obviously it was getting out my organism and I started feeling low and a bit depressed. And it wouldn't go away till next day that I got the next dose. I also must say that the dependence think is very true, also the tolerance is greatly increased over time. I always said to myself 'hey I could leave this anytime but not true and here I am, 1 year later after initial use still using it. I'm actually spending alot of money for it because it's quite hard to find Aderall at my country. Not really sure what I'm going to do, maybe I do I crime and stay a prision for some months and so I forget about it. Ok that was a stupid joke, but seriously it's really hard to forget this stuff.

p.s. as long as for side effects, aside feeling down when it wears off, not really any other.

I'm 16 I wont state my name for I am a bad person. I've been shooting adderall for 4 years now by myself and in the last two years I've watched myself die like a common meth addict. I've seen my face and my body shrink into forms that scared my mother because I just look DEAD. I wont tell my life story for it is not a life but only a story. I've recently been to the hospital and my doctor says I've destroyed my liver and that I might have nerve problems in my resperitory system, but I'm not scared to die because I have done this to myself. I'm so use to temperarry psycosis that I've just decided god need to kill me, I'm not good to mankind PLEASE JUST LET ME DIE!!!

Okay, so im 20 now, the first time i took addy was when i was 15. My friend approached me in high school and said want some addy?

I had never herd of it or anyting, all i was doing then was smokin a little pot. Turns out he gave me alot, a 30 and a 10 both xr. So i absolutly loved it for a long time, ya know geekin everyday at school (beings i was getin it for free everyday)

Anyways i was in a 3 year relationship from the time i was 16-19. She didnt like me doing it so i stopped.

Well just the other day at work one of my friends said something about he need his medicine but hes broke, we taked. He said he really needed it and turns out its my old buddy. Addy.... Don't get me wrong it was all good at first (hes priscribed the 20mg IR and he gets 180 a month, he thew me 60 for buying) I loved it just like i did all those years ago.

Iv'e made sure im drinking plenty of water, but i havent touched one bite of food. Worst of all iv'e been working a 8hr shift everyday and i deliver pizza so i have to be alert, so i keep eating them. Like candy, everytime i would go to my car for a delivery i would pop one. Come inside, go to the bathroom crush one up and snort it.

.....So now i'm sitting here 12:26 pm on wed. I havent been to sleep since sunday night. but now my body aches everywhere.I feel like im going to pass out when i stand up.I cant even tell if i have feet anymore their so numb. And just laying in my bed all night wide awake drives me insane. And i can see my heart beat through my chest.....

And now i sit here with one pill left on my day off. People, please, please never binge like this on addy. It really messes you body up. And i dont know what to do now. I think the comedown is way worse than coke. At least with coke i can sleep at end of the night....

Please just be smart people, smoke weed or something not so bad for you.

I have never felt the need to comment on any sort of website before in my life, so for me sitting here doing this, it's a big deal.. and I am not saying that in any sort of concieded way. So, I tricked a Dr. into prescribing me to Adderall. I knew how to answer the questions just right so that he'd diagnose me with ADD, and i could get adderall. I took it a couple times in HS, but it was random, and just for fun. I would only take it if handed to me. I have never tried any drug in my life.. The only mind-altering substance i have ever used, was alcohol. I'd get drunk yeah. I smoked weed a few times, but there was no way to get me to even try anything else. So I am 23 years old. My husband is currently a Marine and is deployed. His deployment is one year long, and it's our first one. Everything was fine at first, i took great care of myself, the house, everything was orderly, and scheduled. One of my friends from work got prescribed to Adderall, and when she mentioned this, it immediately reminded me of the few times i had taken it and it was fun. I asked her if she'd give me one. 10MG.. oh yeah, i remember this.. I thought. then i thought wow, with the busy life i live this stuff could definately make it better For about 3 years now I have taken a nap every day. i just ALWAYS felt tierd. every day I couldnt wait til my nap and couldnt get through the day without one. I have depression but i have been on Cymbalta for that for about 5 years. (random, but mentioning) So i kept asking her for more, i'd take 3 at once, 4 at once. It was fun. I remember texting her Adderall makes me realize life isnt so bad afterall Basically, cutting to the point .. I am addicted. I got prescribed to it, was so proud of myself. So now I had my own supply, i run out quick, withdrawl, feel like DEATH, then do it all over again. Whats crazy is, I showed ALL of the classic signs of addiction within the first week of taking it. I was completely aware, and joked about it to others.

I am trying to make this story short, but Adderall FLOODS my thoughts. My brain won't stop. The only positive thing about Adderall ive noticed is I use a larger vocabulary, words i have never used before.. and I am smarter! Everything realting to LOGIC, creative thinking, or WRITING is my specialty. I am either happy, really annoyed/angry, or emotionless. This drug is a mind F*ck. I have been sitting in the same exact spot on the computer since 445pm. It is now 230am. Its almost like i focus TOO much. I noticed i get REALLY mad when it starts to wear off, then i take sleeping medicane to knock myself out. But I have experienced Hallucinations, and the feeling of just going COMPLETELY INSANE. i am very self-aware, this drug is BAD NEWS. they need to take it off the market. After this prescription i am NEVER filling it again, i don't care how bad i feel. This is one crazy ass cycle, that is unhealthy and destructive! Don't take it. End of Story.

I'm a 54 year old male carpenter. I've long had problems with organization, and my mind tends to wander. I shared some of this with my doctor about ten years ago and he suggested that I could have ADHD and suggested Wellbutrin. I started that and had immediate positive effects. I had more energy and was much more focused at work and home. My wife started taking it, too, and then my 15 year old son was prescribed it for depression. He attempted suicide 3 weeks later. That kind of soured me on Wellbutrin so my doctor gave me Strattera, which made me feel totally out of it, and affected my vision. I then asked for Adderall, good old fashioned amphetamine, we fought wars on it, housewives did it through the fifties and sixties, and then the hippy speed freaks made it much harder to get. Until recently, when the drug companies slipped it back on the market for various vague disorders. Anyway, he went along and prescribed 20mgXR for me. Those were great but sometimes I'd have a hard time falling asleep, or wake up in the middle of the night feeling like one of those little time release things had just popped open. So I asked him for two 10mg generic amphetamine salts, which are much, much cheaper. I take one in the morning, and one after lunch. I have good energy at work, and my appetite is still too good (I'm about 40lbs overweight, and after the first few weeks, it really hasn't affected my appetite.) If I have a busy evening planned I'll hold off on the second pill until I get off work, and the afternoon may drag a bit, but I won't feel bad. I'll skip a day every few weeks or so, just to keep in touch with my natural body, and I'll be less energetic, and maybe a bit irritable but not extremely so. I feel like I could discontinue them and be fine, just not as focused or energetic.

My sympathies are with those who have had bad experiences, but that hasn't been mine. When I retire, I'll probably stop taking them, but they do help me stay moving at work and home, and help me deal with the million things that need doing in my life.

My daughter had 14 adderall the police found in her car. Arrested with for a 5th degree felony. Spent 3 days in jail over the weekend 1 in county before we could get her released on bond.

She bought them from another college student to study for exams. She was to be a nurse on her 3rd year but couldnt continue with a feloney arrest on the background check she had to withdraw from college and now is back home.

I understand she did a stupid thing but I am angry at the classification of the offense.

Why dose the FDA classify a perscription drug to be a Felony. Can a Doctor write a perscription for Cocain or Heroin? NO. So if Adderall is a dangerous drug BAN IT.

And giving it to kids on top of IT. Next will be locking up 8 year olds.

I was addicted to adderal for about a year. I first tried a long release 25 mg pill. Then, I decided to try the instant release because my boyfriend was prescribed it for ADD and he had switched from long release 25 mg pills to 5 mg of instant release. I liked instant release much better. If I remember right, I started off doing 20 mg 1-3 times every week. Then, I just kept bumping it up by 5 or 10 mg until I got to the point of doing 50 mg a day all at once. I was taking them every day of the week or atleast 5 or 6 days of the week. I feel I wouldn't have made it through my comedowns without weed to chill me out. absolutely not.

I would also smoke a lot of pot at my peak which made me feel AMAZING, and that would be an understatement. I lost a lot of weight, became reallly paranoid and anti- social except for ONLY my boyfriend because we would do it together. I see now that it completely changed my personality. My family could tell a major change in me but they weren't sure what was going on but they knew it wasn't good. They couldn't help me though because I was lying and distant almost all of the time. Which isn't the normal me. My comedowns were always so horrible. I would lay in bed feeling soo tired but yet sooo anxious, hyper, and wanted to do something, yet didn't. and then because there was nothing to do, or nothing I WANTED to do I would cry and feel very depressed.

SO HERES WHAT HAPPENED THAT PUSHED ME TO STOP: One night I had a vicious comedown and I lost control of my actions and ended up in jail. It was both the best and worst experience I have ever had. It was my first time being in jail and I remember having crazy hallucinations. The floor was swirling around sort of like water and the walls and floor would get bigger and smaller. Then Lighter, and darker. It was very weird but I think it was due to the lack of sleep and adderal comedown. A lot of tears were shed that night and I was a complete emotional wreck. I felt like I had lost myself.

When I got out of jail I broke up with my boyfriend because we were having major issues anyway and I only touched adderal a couple of times after that point. and I didnt get it from my ex boyfriend. I now have not done it at all for about 8 months. Probably one of the smartest choices I have ever made. But where would I have ended up if I hadn't completely isolated myself and kept doing it?! It's scary to think about because ofcourse I didn't think I was addicted then, but I definately was. I still crave it every day but I have the strength not to seek it out. And even though it is really hard to control myself from seeking it out, I now have enough respect for myself not to try to get those pills, and other pills too. I realize now that I have addictive behavior and am currently trying to better myself.

I had a rough scholastic career all through high school and freshman year of college. I just was not interested in studying, meaning, I knew that's what I wanted to do, I just did not have the concentration to follow through.

I took 2 year off of college, moved to Europe, worked odd but interesting jobs, traveled and overall just had a very good time. I was happy.

In the back of my mind I always knew I had to finish college and I just had one semester under my belt (not very successful one either). I moved back to Maryland, applied to college and enrolled. I was very excited about this, I would soon find out that becoming excited over something like that does not exist when you are taking adderrall.

The first month went by rather smoothly, but I was beginning to slip, I was waiting tables at night and would come home way too tired to finish the school work handed out during the days. My schedule began to slip, I was not keeping up with my work load as I had been in the previous couple of weeks. Simply put, I was overwhelmed.

Thoughts of failure were creeping in, how could I possibly think that I could complete 3 more years of this? I had never been a good student, never studied, never really applied myself. This was bound to end the same way as it had began, with college on the back burner.

I was 23 at the time and realized this was probably my last chance, also, being 23 I really found it necessary to have my own spending money. I would commute as a full time student and work most nights.

This is when my addiction to adderrall began. A friend of mine, a waiter and a full time student was prescribed and he gave me one to try. I worked as I had never worked and got home with enough energy to finish all my work through and through. It was euphoric. I thought to myself why would I not take addys? I mean, it makes life so much more manageable.

My grades improved and I finished college. However, the adderrall began to take its toll. I wasent eating properly, I wasent sleeping properly and worst of all I was angry and short fused all the time. My ex girlfriend who had seen me before adderrall had no idea what was happening, I was pessimistic, angry and just not happy. I needed to be on the edge, meet more girls, have more drinks, stay up later and have meaningless conversations that at the time seem to be the most important conversations you have ever had.

I would always promise myself that after I graduated I would drop them, then I took the LSATs and same thing, after the LSATs I will stop, then I began a job and I continued. I was up to 60-90 mg a day.

I truly did not think I could live my life, keep my job, and take the metro in the morning without this jolt. I was quite literally addicted. But I had no idea, I thought everyone else was crazy.

I consider myself an introspective person, but when you take adderrall you only see one side of the story, and that is yours. I cheated on my girlfriend and had to face death in my family all while continuing to take adderrall as a motivator. The thing is, the depression would always be more acute. The anger would always be more intense, and the paranoia would quite literally paralyze me. I was not free anymore. I was not myself.

During this time I had surgery on my knee, and I began taking vicodin as not only a way to curb my pain, but long after as a way to soften the end of the day crash.

My girlfriend at the time did not have the patience for this and we broke up. I continued taking adderrall and vicodin over the next month or so when I finally realized I had lost someone I truly cared about as a direct result of adderrall abuse. With her help I was able to quit. I kept a few in my house (just in case) but she flushed them down the toilet. 7 months ago is the last time I have ever taken adderrall, and the last time I EVER WILL.

Since then our relationship has ended, but I treasure that as being a turning point in my life. After years of being in constant fights and me being furious at her, my mom and I are back as a family. The way I acted makes me so ashamed, but mending our relationship has been the best thing to come out of this. I love her, and I appreciate her. Just like I can appreciate sitting out by myself and just thinking clearly and not having to be constantly stimulated.

Everyday I realize what I missed. The pleasure of being alone, the joy behind running and keeping in shape. The benefits of a good night sleep and of eating when you are hungry (something that does not happen on adds).

I never thought I could keep my job without the effort granted by adderralls, but that is not true. You can do your job, you can study and you can give yourself a brake to regroup. And you can do all this without feeling like an extension of that pill.

I am 26 now, and I am myself again.

Everyone must go through their own path, but I hope my experience will help one person relate to their own struggle.

With love and respect,

O

If anyone is considering trying Adderall for non-medical use, or if you currently use it for non-medical reasons, you must hear my story.

I am 28 years old and have 2 daughters.

About 2 1/2 years ago, my sister, who takes Adderall for ADD, offered to give me some when we were repainting my house. She only gave me 10mg at first, because most people she knew said that anything more than that was too intense for them. Considering I already have a high tolerance for medication, I knew I probably wouldn't get anything out of it. I was right.

The next day, she gave me 30 mg. It was the best day of my life. I felt more alive than ever before. I wanted to do so much. I wanted to make my life better. I had so much energy, ambition and motivation. I thought that it was a miracle drug. I decided right then and there that I was going to try and get a prescription for it. I just knew that if I could continue to feel like this, my life would be so much better.

My sister continued to supply me with 30mg pills. I would take one a day and it would last me the entire day.

At that time, I was overweight at 250 lbs. I was scheduled to have gastric bypass surgery a few months later.

It only took me about a month to get a prescription for myself. Over the next few months, I convinced my doctor to progressively increase my dosage until I was at 70mg a day.

I had my surgery and continued to use Adderall afterward. I started taking more and more. I would time my appointments to always be 7 days prior to my next refill, because that is the soonest that I could legally get it, because otherwise, I would run out.

My doctor's main office was not in the same town as me, he only worked here for about 1 week a month. My surgeon was in the same town as him. After my surgery, I had an extreme and abnormal amount of weight loss, even for a gastric bypass patient. It is not unusual for someone weight 300-400+ lbs. to lose 100 or more lbs. in a matter of months. I, on the other hand, was just a few pounds underweight for the surgery, but my insurance approved it anyway. Statistics show that the average gastric bypass patient will lose 80% of their excess body weight within 2 years and 30% of their entire body weight within 10 years. Within two months, I had exceeded the 2 year average. By the time I went in for my 6 month checkup, I had exceeded the 10 year average. About a year after surgery, I was severely underweight and was still losing. I never plateaued like most patients. My doctor did not know what was wrong. I had to visit him out of town once a week so they could monitor my weight loss.

I started having trouble getting appointments in time to see my prescribing doctor. Because he was in the same town as my surgeon, I was able to contact him when I went down there so that he could get me a prescription.

Finally, my surgeon said we needed to consider a reversal of my gastric bypass. I stopped going to see him. My weight finally did stabalize. However, because of the extreme weight loss, I was required to take additional supplements as well as massive amounts of protein. I had to consume extremely high amounts of calories just to keep from losing weight. Because of this, I was never able to achieve the healthy lifestyle that one is supposed to learn after surgery.

I would try to keep count daily of how many pills I was taking, just so I would not take too many. It progressively got higher. At first, I would never take more than 80mg a day. Then it went to 100mg, 120mg, and up from there.

My prescribing doctor moved out of state so I was transferred to his associate. I was unable to get last minute appointments with this doctor because they were usually booked. I couldnt' make advanced appointments because they would always make them for one month out and I would be long out of Adderall by then. I ended up switching to a general practitioner.

At first, I would do just as before, and make appointments 7 days in advance. However, this quickly became not soon enough. I would go 2-4 days without and was miserable. I couldn't go to work, I couldn't get out of bed. I felt suicidal. I would just want to die. When it would finally come time for my appointment, even then, I could barely make it. As soon as I got my prescription filled and took the first pill, within minutes, I was back up and going strong.

This went on for a few months until one day when my doctor had no appointments available. They were able to get me in with one of the other doctors. This doctor looked at my charts and noticed that I had been getting my prescriptions early every month. When they did the math, they said that I was not due for another prescription for at least a month. I got into a big argument with them. They finally wrote me one, but made it so I could not get it filled for another two weeks, and noted in my chart that I could not come in early for my refills. I thought for sure that I was going to start having problems with this doctor now, so I immediately switched back to the doctor that I was unable to get last minute appointments for.

A month after after that incident however, because my doctor never contacted my other one, I thought that I might be able to go back and get a refill and they would never know. I called and made an appointment. Sure enough, I was able to get one. I told myself that would be the only time I would do it because I did not want to get in any trouble if I was found out. However, as you can probably guess, I kept going back. I would get a prescription every 2 weeks, paying for one out of pocket at a different pharmacy so my insurance wouldn't know.

I have long since stopped counting how many I take each day. I stopped when I was up to 180mg. I know I exceed that now. Before getting prescribed by two doctors, I would run out 2 weeks early and have to suddenly take off from work once a month while I experienced sever withdrawals. Sometimes, I was able to convince other doctors that I needed some Vicodin or other narcotic for some kind of pain. This was the only thing that would make me feel better. I started buying cocaine in hopes that it would help. I had never done drugs in my life, and not even that would make me feel better. In fact, I got no experience whatsoever from the cocaine.

To wrap this up, I have since lost my children due to neglect and, although I am able to get them back, my mother told them she suspected I was using drugs and in order to get them back, I would have to take random drug tests. I told them I was on Adderall. However, when the first test came back, it showed my levels to be 20 times the normal amount. They wanted me to sign a release of information so they could talk to my doctors. I couldn't do that. My children miss me so much and cry to come home. The Department tells them that they can't yet because Mommy isn't doing her homework. I am devastated that they are gone and want them back so much. But, I cannot get off the Adderall and I can't admit to anyone that I have a huge problem.

I fear the withdrawals which would last for possibly even years after treatment because of the high amount that I take and for so long. Additionally, I am a professional in the field of law and I absolutely love my work. I would lose all of that as well.

My husband, who has given me the best life I could possible imagine, has asked me to leave. I promise him repeatedly that things would change, but he has made a final decision now. Every day, I wish I could die. Adderall does not do a thing for me anymore other than make me feel miserable. Before, i would take it and within minutes, I would feel the surge of energy and I was ready to conquer the world. Now, I just want to sleep and have not experienced that motivation for a long time.

I've lost everything important to me in my life. I had the most wonderful husband, two beautiful, happy daughters, a huge gorgeous home that I picked out for my birthday, and I've lost it all because of Adderall. Many people don't realize that it doesn't take an illegal drug such as meth or cocaine to do this to you.

I regret ever taking Adderall. Before I took it, I didn't know what it was like and my life wasn't bad. If I had never taken it, I would never have known the pleasure of it and wouldn't have missed it. Now, I've destroyed myself and my family.

I beg of anyone who is considering taking it or who is still in the initial phases of euphoria from it, STOP NOW. It is not worth the consequences.

Everyday, I wish that it would finally kill me so that I don't have to continue facing all of the loss that I have caused myself and those around me. I know that eventually, it probably will kill me, if I don't do it some other way. I hate life, I hate myself, I have never been so unhappy in my life. But I can't stop.

Tomorrow i start my Adderall 30 mg prescription. im really excited about it because i have ADD and have a hard time focusing in school and keeping my priorities straight. Im 16 and live in california, and since 3rd grade, i have had bad grades and i had a bad social life till 8th grade. When high school started, i became popular and now as a junior, i have many friends. Yet im dissapointed in myself because i realize i want to go to college badly because i want to experiance life to the fullest and to make the right decisions. So im taking this medication to help me focus and do better in school. Hopefully it will make a large difference in my life. I was completely confident in adderall before i came to this site. Now though that ive read stories about people whos lives have been ruined because of adderall, im on high alert. Theres no way im going to let this drug ruin any part of my life. Something i noticed though is that most of these people have addictive personalities, while i know i dont. I have had my personal share of drugs (weed,extacy,vicodin,robotessin) all which were super fun experiences, but i never have thought twice about doing any of them (in fact i dont even like smoking weed anymore:] ) so personally im not worried about becoming addicted, but im going to call my doctor and ask him to have a regular 2-3 month checkup just so i stay healthy. Also about the eating problem, i think eating at normal times is super important. so make sure to eat even when your not hungry. saying im only 150, and muscular, im not worried at all about staying healthy. Im sorry about all you people who have had/are having a rough time with adderall, i wish you all the greatest change in your life, and that you realize whats important to you and that youll be able to overcome your challenges and live your life so when your old you can look back and say damn, ive lived a great life yours happily, R.M.E

BEFORE READING THIS: I have Pretty extreme ADHD and am on an off cycle of adderall(2 Days off 2 days on) so dodnt mind the stream of conciousness writing style. I've been taking adderrall on and off for about 3 years now, ITS WICKED EFFECTIVE WHEN USED IN A PROPERLY IMPLEMENTED STRATEGIC ON/OFF CYCLE. AMERICA YAA!!! I was first prescribed it when i started college (CU mechanical engineering), my brother gave me some to try one day and to say the least the results made me shit myself(not literally) b/c it was like a temporary reprogramming of my brain( I HAVE WICKED ADHD AWESOME!) and i was like holy friggin shit i have alot of UNTAPPED CAPACITY that i am wasting so i went to my doctor and was kickin my feet like a motherfucker and hes like ya i always knew u were adhd its wicked obvious heres three scripts of 15mg XR adderall and i took it for the first half of the semester at clarkson and then switched to instant release 15 MG Adderall2x daily and was like ya word but my dad kept calling me at school and i never met him till i was 17 so i got all confused and fucked up and didnt do well in my classes b/c i wasnt focused on mechanical engineering b\c my brain was undeveloped(until about AGE 21 MY BRAIN MODIFIED ITSELF). But anywho, I am currently setting myself up for school at Georgia Tech in the fall for Aerospace Engineering and AFROTC(Gonna Get a Slot in flight school, officers program etc.), My past three years experience with adderall has overall been very good, minus the small bits of social scene modification that it produced, but the NEGATIVE SIDE EFFECTS have been offset by the accomplishment that i have had on it, FIRST OFF while going to school(just getting core creddits)I saved up mad money doing carpentry during the day and then I HAVE NEVER CHANGED OIL and i then lifted my 99 suburban, chugging adderall with energy drinks like a mad man, rebuilt the motor to make mad horsepower LEARNING EACH STEP BY MYSELF AS I WENT, THENNN last summer, before decidding on returning to school for Aerospace engineering, I got a job after teaching myself mechanics at a hotrod shop, and saved and built a second GEN ARMY GREEN 600HP 454 CAMARO 4SPEED and it was the MOST GRATIFYING THING I HAVE EVER DONE, AND WITHOUT ADDERALL I WOULD NOT HAVE HAD THE AUDACITY TO ACCOMOPLISH THIS. YES IT WAS HARD ON MY BODY A BIT, BUT BIG FRIGGIN DEAL THIS IS AMERICA THE LAND OF THE FREE BABY DETROIT STEEL AMERICAN MILITARY POWWER!!!? I would cycle it on and off according to my work/project schedule, YOU MUST PLAN TO EITHER RELAX AND DO NORMAL WORKLOAD, or TAKE IT AND GO FULL THROTTLE AHEAD BEING MILITARISTIC AND STOP AT NOTHING TO ACHIEVE YOUR OBJECTIVE!!! THE LAST 4 DAYS OF MY CAMARO BUILD I DIDNT SLEEP A WINK BUT WAS TOO AMPED UP ON THE PROJECT TO CARE, DROPPED IN THE MOTOR HOOKED UP THE DRIVETRAIN, and ON THE FOURTH MORNING AT 6AM I FIRED UP THE BIG BLOCK 600HP AND ROASTED MY TIRES AND THE COPS CAME NOISE COMPLAINT....THEY JUST ASKED ABOUT THE CAR, I WAS JACKED ON MONSTER AND ADDERALL AND DID ANOTHER BURNOUT FOR THEM....AWESOME!!!!!!! But anywho, what an amazing drug for the government to distribute, and in my opinion it was done in order to actually advance the united states as a whole, you gotta think big and go big, THATS WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT, however, in order to maximize your effectiveness utilizing adderall it requires a precision plan that achieves a balance in your life based on two things: Extreme Relaxation, and Extreme Productivity. My personal recommendation is to calculate your workload so that you take on 40-50 percent of your load JACKED 12-24 Hours on ADDERALL, sleep and take an offday between loads. The key is that on your offdays your objective must be setup for relaxtion, so the scheduling is very very important, music is key, good food, a beach run maybe, a movie etc., but light production is a breeze on these days, all you have to do is chill out to the tunes and flow with your chores, and NEVER QUESTION the no dose, NO IF BUT MAYBE revolving around taking it, 0 Dose, IT IS ABSOLUTELY IMPERATIVE TO YOUR LIFE OBJECTIVES AND MAX PRODUCTION LOADS that YOU TAKE NO ADDERALL ON THESE DAYS, SO SHUT UP YOUR BRAIN, AND ENJOY LIFE AND CHILL!!! MUSIC MOVIES FOOD FRIENDS CRUISING ETC. Must be used as components of your relaxation days setup as rewards for light workloads, so plan for these paramount days of rejuvination and balance. This is America, so Dream Big and DONT BE AFRAID TO GO HARD, GO BIG OR GO HOME BABY! So okay, you have a FULL SCRIPT OF ADDERALL OR BAG OF ADDERALL IN FRONT OF YOU, Set your Objective Blue Print and Timeline Next to you and decide on your On/Off Days, NO PARTIAL DOSE DAYS:READ: ON OR OFF DAYS!!! I use a mufffin tin to distribute the adderall fuel for the set days and label the slots, NEXT, YOU MUST GO OVER THE BLUEPRINT/TIMELINE of On/OFF Max Production Days in your head until it is forged like billet aircraft aluminum; easy to remember. So prioritize your goals, pic the big dogs/tasks for the POWER DAYS, and Precision plan your exact rewards and light productivity activies for the CHARGE UP DDAYS, BY THE WAY( THE CHARGE UP DAYS ARE THE ONES WHERE YOU REALIZE THE GENIUS OF YOUR ADDERALL IMPLEMENTATION AND THE TRUE POWER OF THE DRUG, THESE ARE THE DAYS YOU REAP THE BENEFITS, THE REAL FUN DAYS!!!!!

okay, well to begin i was never diagnosed with adderall, my little cousin was however, so i decided to take some because i heard it was like speed to people who dont need it, and sure enough it was, after the first 3 pills i took i felt magnificintly high, and like...idk purely amazing, so i was like HEEEEYYYY why not take a few more, so took another 3 and sure enough it made me feel like i was on the top of the world. however, i ended up taking about 30 pills in the time span of about an hour. i felt so amazing, so i figured the more i took, the better i would feel...i was very very very wrong however, after about 20 minutes of taking the last pill i got really jittery, my body felt like it was shaking and my hangs were being clenched together like in a fist and i couldnt move them. so my aunt, who i lived with at the time , drove me to the hospital and they found out that i had taked like a lethal amount of the adderall. after we arrived at the hospital i remember laying down on a stretcher. after that all i could remember whas they they gave me this really painful shot in my ass and i was freaking out because i didnt want the gross male doctor to do it...after that tho i layed down, and after that is started hullucinating and i dint remember too much about it, but i would literallt see stuff thta wwasnt there, come to find out i was straight trippin out, for about about a week, anywys

If you are thinking about taking adderall, please don't! I abused adderall for about 3 years and stopped a few months ago. I experienced a major depressive episode and severe anxiety after stopping. It feels great when you are taking it, but when you stop it is just hell! You know the feeling when you are coming down from taking adderall, well when you stop taking it for good it is about 5,000 times that feeling. Stay away from amphetamines!

Aug 19, 2010

I started using Adderall in 2007. At first it was great, taking two 30 mg pills per day. I felt great and everything seemed fine. Then I noticed a gradual decline in the good feelings I got from Adderall. I also suffer from bipolar and was hospitalized a few weeks later.

In the hospital, my drug addict roommate suggested I snort it when I mentioned that it didn't work any more. Worst advice I ever took!

You see, I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict from other substances, so I had no business taking an amphetamine. I snorted it and after that day, it was the only way I used Adderall. I used it like meth or coke, and it was pretty similar.

It worked for a few months. I did everything for everyone. I kept up with my kids, my job, my house. I was a supermom. This was not going to last...

I started running out early, crashing every month. The crashes were awful. I couldn't get out of bed or function for a week. So I decided to find a solution: I looked on the Internet to find suppliers and after hours and hours of searching, I found a few connections. Now I no longer ran out of it. But my personality was changing, and my appearance as well.

I was preoccupied with getting a fix, and I ignored my kids, husband,everyone. I did what I had to do, and nothing more. Since I stayed up until 2 or 3 every night, I had trouble getting up. I had time only to get my fix, shower and get dressed. My oldest son saw to it that my younger ones had what they needed to go to school. I crossed them over to the crossing guard and I thought I was doing my job as a good mother. I had no time or desire to care about my looks anymore. I never brushed my hair or cared about how I dressed. I avoided people I knew. I never cooked dinner, bringing fast food crap home.

I was empty; I had no feelings. I stole narcotics and amphetamines from people I knew. I had drugs illegally sent to my place of employment who also was a friend. It goes on and on and there isn't enough space to print it all.

In a nutshell, I ended up paranoid, manic, addicted and a mess. DCF and the police were involved. After hospital and hospital, detox after detox, and several speed binges, I think I am finally healing over this horrible drug. Don't let anyone fool you when they tell you it is a harmless drug. Maybe some people can take it and not be addicted,but I am not one of those people. Aderall would have, no doubt, killed me before long. I was up to 250mgs a day, all snorted. I'm lucky I didn't have a heart attack and I'm convinced God was looking out for me. I'm taking His advice and staying away from it. One day at a time.

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Snappy, mean, Crying spells, anxious stomachache. Uneasy, depressed, dissatisfied, lonely, angry and unmotivated. Sleepy, non stop daydreaming experiencing all this with a headache. Keep thinking of what my partner is thinking about me, he's not wanting to be with me cause how the medication has overcome my life and how I'm unable to function being off it. How I feel he is thinking he does not want to be with someone whom has a dependency and personality is based on medication. Me of myself, mad at self for having such impact on me do to adderall. Confused on how people (DOCTORS) prescribe such medication MARKS me as an addict because of me not having it for to two days. GUILT ON BELIVING THAT MEDICATION HELPS YET I RELY ON IT TO RESPOND & FUNCTION TO AN EVERYDAY NORMAL DAILY LIFE.

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Ok my whole life I pretty much felt out of place and like I had no common sense. After much talking with our Dr. my son was given an Rx for adderall. He is extremely ADHD. within a half hour of his first dose, he functioned normal. (took time to think out his actions slowed down enough to realize what is going on)

After some extensive research into my family history turns out I was tested for ADHD back in middle school but I wasnt a behaviour problem, I just couldnt focus and was called lazy or said I didnt apply myself.

I have a diagnosis of Adult ADD. I dont have hyperactivity like my son. I just dont focus well. I lose my train of thought when speaking, then I just feel wierd in social situaitons. I have been on Adderall 30 mg 2 xs a day for about 4 months. I have lost nearly 70 lbs, but am really overweight so thats not a bad thing. Taken as persribed, this drug is a God send for people like me and my son. All the other idiots that take this just because it's fun well, thats just stupid. The whole point is not to feel high, but to function normally. I only take mine to get through my work day. my son takes his to get through school. After that, it does wear off, and there are times of feeling kinda blah, and once in a while if I take my 2nd dose late, I dont get a lot of sleep. All of that is listed in the side effects. THis drug workd for its intended purpose. Any other use, you get what you get.

For anyone that visits this site in the future suffering from adderall addiction. I've read all these stories and some are beyond shocking. I really can understand a teenager or maybe even a young adult, But hearing these mothers and fathers ruining their families lives, and relationships with friends. Then act like victoms almost makes me kinda sick. Adderall is a psychological addictive substance, and a person with add or ADHD can live just fine with out this medicine. It was said best on my favorite post. ONOFF DAY CYCLE MAXIMIZES HAPPINESS LIFE PRODUCTION

I was first put on adderall when I was 22. I was trying to go back to school and was having trouble, since I had been diagnosed with ADHD in the 3rd grade but parents didn't want their child on meds thank god. When I first took it, of course I got the great feeling of focus & a love for learning. As I progressed along after a week or so I realized they lacked the effect from my initial pill. As an ADULT with RESPONSIBILITIES, you're first thought should not be, oh shit, I gotta get to the doctor and up the dosage. No you immediatly stop, wait for it to get out of your system, and pace yourself better with your meds and like I said, you, lived maybe not at your peek of thinking capabilities, but you still were fine before the medicine. If you become addicted to adderall and blame ADHD or your DOCTOR who was trying to help your lil druggie head think a little or clearly and with better focus. But you enjoyed your high and abused it instead of just taking one day off. Or if you feel like you can't then find another treatment. A responsible human being looks at what is in their medicine and we all no what METH is and how it's identical. this should tell you immidiatly, hey maybe since I have a family and responsibility and I lived this long with ADHD, I should cut back considering it worked great the first time. But no, it's eases the guilt to Blame the Doc for giving it to you, or treating your adhd like its a damn decease!!! Grow up, this drug is most known to be abused by kids, and you should truely feel embarressed for even going back to the doctor for more.

People that say they are still isolated from their family because of this conflicting addiction to their meds because of their ADHD Decease. Upsets me even more! As I said, this drug is gets addicting in a weak mind, and if you have a family, that should always come first before your buzz! Sound mean? it's not, I've seen some of the worst cases of my friends coming off adderall and yes it sucks ass. They were always tired, had pain in there joints among other places, and got really depressed. So, at least you're not choking of vomit, uncontrolable bowl movements, constantly in a puddle of sweat doing nothing but scream and cry. I've seen my best friend go through this, and I cried the entire time.

Your depression comes from the fact your brain isn't processing those nececarry chemicals that good feeling. It will take time but it will again. In most cases I've seen with people still addicted after their brain starts processing this chemical on it's own again, are having unrelated problems at home, at work, or anything in general. They remember the feeling they got from that first pill, and want it again. As I said before, in no way am I trying say non of these stories are serious. I found them all very strong and upsetting, just not the ones where you act like the victum because your not, the people around you are because you want to get high, and don't want to come back to reality, and you also know that is not what this drug is ment for.

My body needs this drug, and I take it very seriously, and so should every other adult. I also read this, and it seem like there was a pattern of justifying calling yourself once again the victom, bad doctor, I can't help it i have ADHD excuse. And it's these types of people that are the reason they are trying to pull the drug off the market, when it has changed my life and allowed me to get an education and get a respectable job. No excuses are not going to help anyone that reads these unfortunate stories. You need to know if you get addicted to adderall as an adult, especially with family responsibilities and act like a victom blaming anything or anyone but yourself for your addiction. Have an inner drug problem, You need something other than a drug that is often compared to METH.

I feel if people have a better knowledge of this addiction, and that its more of an excuse than an addiction, perhaps people wont feel so helpless to make a change. Thank you very much for reading all of this, and I truly truly hope it helps someone. After all you act so sad about how much your killing your family and friends with your addiction, I know the withdraws of this drug are EXTREMELY less devastating. Maybe it's time you cause yourself a little pain, & and lay off the drug.

I am a 23 year old female and have been clean from aderall and all stimulants for 1 year. I started taking stimulants at age 15. I remember my pre-stimulant years that I was a happy, energetic, and friendly girl. I loved being around people, playing sports, and dancing. When it came time for class I felt like I was fading in the background. Like everyone around me was getting on the magic school bus for a scholastic adventure and I was standing out side with my feet cemented in the ground.

I always had this fear of not fitting in and sure enough in school I did not. One or two of my friends had been on stimulants and seemed like there was a glaze over them or a protective shield from all outside forces, like they were super heros! Or... that their brain was on steroids and they seemed resilient and strong.... So, I went home to my parents and pleaded with them that there precious baby girl needed to find a solution to this problem and ADD medicine was it! So, I went and got tested....

The test simply illustrated that I had kept my head in the clouds and never learned how to memorize. While other students who have been interested in school have learned how to read a WHOLE BOOK before I could get through my first chapter.

The minute I took my first medicine I was allergic, and it was a non-stimulant called Strattera. So, three months went by, with targets from the medical reaction on my skin, and I went on to try stimulants. I can’t remember exactly what I took at first but I think it was Rittilin. I didn't like how it made me feel angry and irritable..So back to my psychiatrist and I switched to Concerta. Concerta didn't work out and than came Aderall. Aderall did it. Oh yea baby full SPEED AHEAD!

Eight grade in class I was turning into a statue. All of my connections to the human race were starting to break and I was beginning to isolate in a room of crowded people. I remember sitting in my history class with one of my favorite professors, and my friend.Yea so, I turn around to him, thinking that I am hot shit because as many people know Aderall makes you lose weight, I thought I had become a greek goddess statue. He looked over at me and was like Natalie you hot. (that's what I heard)..really he said 'Natalie, are you hot?' I had huge sweat marks about 5 inches in diameter. Aderall would speed up my heart rate and cause my body temperature to go up, not only that it made me have high anxiety that showed up from the minute a person came in 3 feet from me because I didn't want them to see how cracked out I was on Aderall.

So, onto High school. I had been a competitive figure skater for some time and felt the medicine definitely made it possible to have more of an overall body awareness which is a key element to successfully landing a jump or completing a combination spin or in my mind skating in general. At this point in time I was starting to make Aderal my GOD or my higher power. I tour my hamstring and groin and was taken out of the figure skating world and directed to try team sports. I started off with soccer first and found that I had a problem in groups of people. I was very athletic and could keep up with the fastest on the team but couldn’t figure out how to do that team-work thing. I made every team I tried out for but always had this sickening fear I was never good enough. When I would take the medicine it would take an awareness of my environment and put it solely on me and I started to feel like I didn’t need anyone. Now that I look back I can see I never needed anyone’s help in anyway and aderall gave me a feeling of euphoria. This self-confidence came along with this new thinner body I had gotten from hours during the week in the gym and outside running. I had to plan my day around how long my aderall would last in-order to stop me from running into other people who would see me all geeked out. Isolation was setting in with cleaning my room, working out, and attempting to do my school-work.

As I came off of aderall I started to feel like I was the happiest person in any room of people and that I could talk to anyone. Like the cloke had been lifted and there I was ready for action and attraction. Which leads to the enhanced sex drive that comes along with stimulants. My sexual labedo was through the roof. I thought that any guy I wanted I could have and he wanted me to. I actually began to hang out with only guys at night when the medicine wore off a little bit and didn’t know how to associate what-so-ever all I wanted to do was have sex and than both of us was happy and they could leave in a little while. So, this went on until I got to college. Where I actually to mine and everyone’s surprise got a boy friend that lasted for about a year and a half.

I decided to go to school in North Carolina in hopes to escape my high school because of the embarrassment and shame I had with my actions on aderol. In college the medicine solidified this notion in my mind: I would NEVER be doing this work if I wasn’t on Aderol. The girl inside of me was saying HA! Yea right Chemistry? Write a 12 page paper?! No, way there is way more fun things to do!’ I started playing club soccer and the team would get better and better each year. Practice got harder along with school, so I would call my Psychiatrist and say Hey the medicine is wearing off and I need more, so she would prescribe more. I took Dexedrine and Aderol. Dexedrine was, like if I have ever done cocain, I would say that’s what it was like. It was so potent. I took one of those little pills and I felt like I was Ronaldinho on the soccer field. Those of you who do not know who that is he’s a soccer player for Brazil and he’s ridiculous…just youtube him. My homework was starting to become a nucence to me because I needed to become the next pro soccer player!

I began to lie.

I lied about where I was in my skills in soccer. I said at one point that I was going to be playing for the women’s professional team in Philadelphia and that I had practiced once with them already. My mind started to go on this tangent that sports my six-pack and being perfect for my perfect boyfriend was the only thing that mattered. I was detatching from reality at this point.

After school and soccer practice was over I would drink about two to three glasses of wine to bring myself down from the high of the Dexedrine and Aderal high. When I would drink and go out I would have a great time with my girl friends and dance and feel like everything was going to be okay. Not until I started going out with my boyfriend I started to feel like he was cheating on me and paranoia was kicking in and the mixture of the medicine and alcohol was TOXIC.

Needless to say that relationship ended and I felt the need to go half way across the world to free my mind. I went on a cruise ship through the Mediterranean and really heightened my use. I thought I would come back refreshed looking fabulous, drinking less, and would be able to win my boy friend back. He thought differently and I started to feel the effects of depression. The medicine didn’t work for me anymore and I couldn’t find interest in the things I use to love. I began to take my medicine drudging through life and smoking weed every so often. Amphetamines and weed are a recipe for PARANOIA. I thought people were after me and this led to my first and last Rehab treatment.

Rehab consisted of one day of detox and 67 days of therapy trying to relearn my new body, mind, and spirit. (How weird does that sound?) I stayed over the 28 day stay because I had taken stimulants for over 8 years and couldn’t handle the anxiety, vulnerability, and reality of real life. During this time I got my sea legs back and learned to work out on say pace 6.0 not 9.0 and to take one step at a time. I am in recovery every day and find that it doesn’t get easier unless I do something about it. I today, go to the University of my dreams and they offer an unbelievable program that assists their students to getting the help they need in many areas. I am real today. I have a heart and it beats with each breath I take at the pace I wish to go. With each struggle I go through I break up with a relationship with my self and start a new one. Each relationship is better than the last. Those struggling stay on the right path and follow your heart. You’re worth it and are beautiful!

I've taken Adderall 10mg 3x daily for about 6 months now for Combination Therapy for Epilepsy. The newer anticonvulsants don't work for me and I started lifelong- Barbiturate therapy for Epilepsy at the age of 19. The Barbituarates make you feel extremely tired during the daytime...I mean I was falling asleep at stoplights, etc., so my Neurologist added Adderall to my medication. Combination Therapy is Amphetamines/Barbiturates used in conjunction with one another to treat Epilepsy (and when used together they actually protect you from seizures better than Barbiturates alone). I have not noticed any negative side effects yet. I finally don't have to drink 4 RedBull a day and feel shaky all the time. To me all of these horror stories about Adderall come down to irresponsibility. I haven't had any problems with Adderall because I take it exactly the way it is prescribed to me. Just like Secobarbital and Phenobarbital are very addicting but I haven't had a problem with those either...because I don't take extras.

I have adhd, and have since i was very young. I managed to learn skills to help me cope with it and even got through high school and college without one med! I started taking adderall 20 mg three times a day, as prescribed by my dr. The only reason is because at this venture in my life I am overwhelmed from having adhd and trying to raise three girls, new business, and all my other responsibilities. I am finding that the extra energy in the morning is incredibly helpful...however, the energy part tends to decrease throughout the day. If the dose you are taking makes you too energetic, then you are most likely on too high of a dose. while it is a stimulant, if you are on the correct dose for your body and mind, it shouldn't make you feel too bad or hyper once you've gotten your body used to it. Also, if you feel like you are abusing it, then try to add welbutrin to the mix, as this medicine helps with impulse control and will help stick to your guns about taking smaller doses till you taper off. Of course, you can only do this with medical supervision...as adderall and welbutrin have a higher likely hood of causing seizures. Then once you are off the adderall you can switch to a non stimulant add med. Also, keep in mind that you don't need to take adderall if you don't have a lot going that day...or you can at least do half the dose on calm days. please be careful, and only take these meds as directed by your dr...this medicine after all, has a very similar make up as meth...and we all know that meth will permamently damage your dopamine and such receptors. you wouldn't want to permanently impede your ability to enjoy sex or other positive feelings in life. Good luck to all of you!!

Man. I've been takin addies for like 7 years now. Ages 19-26. I get prescribed 75 mgs a day and always run out early. When I run out I drink energy drinks but in my opinion the comedown from energy drinks is even worse than addies. Here I am, divorced, without a job, single, out of touch with family, and i took like 140 mgs yesterday. In a way its my secret weapon. Helps me stay moving, productive, active, social, focused, etc. In another way I'm dependent on it. I take about 100mgs a day and have been doing that for years now. I eat healthy and drink lots of water. Basically I snack on food all day long and never really eat whole meals. I hear that's healthier anyway. When I don't take it i'm just tired that's all. No withdrawal symptoms other than sleeping like 16-18 hours a day for a few days then gradually less. I just wish I had someone to talk to about it I guess...and I stopped seeing my therapist because I didn't want to take up her time without being able to pay her. It's ok though, once I take my addie this morning, everything will seem so much better...

I was first diagnosed with ADD and prescribed adderall when I 14. I'm 25 now, and after a painfully long road, both mentally and physically, I have found a way to live without it...and i feel GREAT. I've truly seen and experience it all - I've known people that have been very addicted and it's ruined their lives, but I've also known people who really benefit from it. My story is somewhat of a mix. I lost over 45 pounds on adderall at one point. I've been up for days and days at a time and I've crashed with serious, serious depression.

A little background - I've been through a lot, and I mean a LOT, with this drug and I know and have experienced anything that adderall can cause. I've taken every dosage they might give you and I've taken it with a variety of other prescriptions as well. I've been at my best and at my worst because of adderall. Whatever you're going through, I've been there and I KNOW how AWFUL it can feel when you come down or when you're trying to stop. I've lost boyfriends because of it but I've also passed honors classes because of it. I've had more experience with this drug than I probably will with any other. I did not start in college. I started young - at 16 I was suddenly on honor roll, but was losing friends because my attitude was changed. Trust me, I really do know this stuff.

At one point about a year ago, I really felt the need to stop - it was getting to be too much and I was getting horrible crashes again, like I used to as a teenager. I have also been battling depression on and off for many years, so to simply stop taking adderall could be dangerous for my mental state. I did a lot of research and talked to my doctor about a combination of a low dose benzo (I take Ativan) in combination with a low dose of depression medication (welbutrin). These two drugs have worked wonders on me. I take welbutrin everyday, and notice no difference in my mood or personality, except that concentrating is a little bit easier and I'm don't get horrible down feelings. I take ativan as needed, usually at bedtime but also before big presentations or exams (I'm in grad school). Although there's no 'high' feeling, the careful use and combination of these two drugs does what adderall can not: they can make reduce the stress of various tasks or activities and allow you to function really well but CALMLY. Adderall simply took over my body/mind and i would just GO, go, go until I finished whatever I was doing, then crash. On welburtin, since it actually gets in your bloodstream, there is no crash, assuming you are consistently taking it everyday as told by your doctor. And ativan, which I personally feel has been the most beneficial perscription I've ever gotten, does not make me feel 'high' or 'wired' - just the opposite. I feel great, but in the most natural way.

So, for anyone out there who takes adderall for fun, to study, to help do laundry for their kids, or whatever the reason, and you feel you can't ever get off it - you CAN. It's a matter of finding the right doctor, doing your research, and being open to trying other things, whether that be changes in diet, your social circle, trying a different medication, etc. For me, after trying (and hating) lots of anti-depressants, I found one that works. Welbutrin, my doctor claims, also helps with ADD/ADHD. It took me many weeks to even notice this drug.

I was dependent on adderall for many years. I'd occasionally stop, but when I did my grades would plummet right along with my mood and energy (of course). I didn't want to take it, and in my 20s started to truly hate the way it made me feel. I thought I needed it though and didn't think there was any real solution. Guess what? There IS. You CAN stop and it IS possible, with the right help (this is very key), to find a more suitable medication for you. If even the thought of anti-depressants creep you out, well I felt the same way. And ativan has been outstanding. Ativan helped me fight a very serious narcotic addiction about 4 1/2 years ago, and now that I'm off adderall, just knowing I have it calms me down. I could get my prescription to adderall back extremely easily, but I dont want it AND i dont need it anymore. I feel normal. My moods are not black and white. There is no up and there is no down. I'm just me. After over 10 years and numerous attempts, I finally can live without adderall, and do so very happily.

find a doctor you trust, and find one who really knows what they're talking about. This is serious stuff and it could take months to find a way to stop. but it's your life - be patient. it IS worth it.

I've read all these posts && I've never felt the need to put my 2 cents in more than I do over adderall. I'm almost 21 yrs old && I was diagnosed with ADHD almost 4 years ago. I went to the doctor, she asked me a few questions, took about 10 minutes to diagnose me with a life long illness or whatever you want to call it that no medicine will cure. Questions that easily could say everyone has add/adhd at times. Anyways I got prescibed to 20 mg a day. At first I loved adderall, my grades were great, I wanted to do good in school && participate, wanted to do my homework && study, felt like life was amazing, I could do anything && conquer the world in a day, was always in an amazing mood, had endless energy, && felt like all my problems went away! I didn't know a thing about adderall && I didn't care this drug was the cure to everything... but little did I know && little did my doctors tell me that this little pill was about to bring much bigger problems to than my adhd ever did. After 4 yrs I take 60mg a day, I went from 140lbs to 105lbs in 3 months && I loved it! Without adderall I'm a zombie I can easily sleep for days, I'm in a bad mood, depressed, lifeless, basically 100% different person. I've never abused my medicine but the thought of having to take a pill to have a normal life for the rest of my life is more upsetting than any issue I have with adhd. I'm only happy when I take it, I only do things when I take it, && when I don't take it friends && family will say oh you must not have taken your medicine, that's how much adderall changes your life. My doctor told me that 60mg is the max dosage you can be on && the 60mg just isn't cutting it anymore... so now what? My son is 3 yrs old && showing definite signs of adhd && I swear on everything he will never be put on any stimulant ever. Adderall masks adhd/add problems it does not cure them!

My story is the same as everyone else's so I won't go into it. Suffice it to say I dosed Adderall IR at about 300mg per day on avg. The last run was 2 years..every single day. During this time, I was sleepy often, and gained 40 lbs. Adderall stopped supressing my appetite long, long ago. In the end, it caused hyperfocus and I basically stopped moving. I could go hours and hours without moving from a chair if I had a computer in front of me. When I ran out of ways to get more, I went to detox to avoid a harsh withdrawal. There, I found that they had nothing to treat me. Amphetamine withdrawal means sleeping for days, eating everything in sight, and feeling generally empty. I thought it was unfair that there was a medical detox protocol for opiates (suboxone), alcohol (benzos-alcohol in a pill) and benzos (more benzos), and noone gave a crap about the speed freaks. I complained to anyone that would listen, that the speed addict community was underserved. I demanded to know why billions of dollars in research weren't being done on speed withdrawal research. One guy finally shut me up when he said..you should research withdrawal treatment on drugs before committing yourself to getting addicted to one. I feel pretty foolish at that. So, I began to do the research myself..looked at various NIH studies, NAMI, etc.,and I saw a trial for Provigil(modafinil)for people withdrawing from speed. I asked the detox doc if he would consider it for me. To my delight, he agreed. Provigil is similar to amphetamine in that it promotes wakefulness. I figured at the least it would help me stay awake to function through withdrawals. I did that and much more. Provigil or it's newer form, Nuvigil is approved by the FDA for shift workers, nighttime workers, narcoleptics and/or have sleep apnea. It is not approved as an amphetamine w/d treatment protocol but can be written off- label. It is not without it's problems. 1) Modafanil is controlled but it is a c4 and addiction is rare. Refills can be called in and the pharmacist never looks at you funny if you try to refill early or if you are on a high dose. They could care less about c4s..much bigger fish to fry. It is C4 not because addiction is likely, but because of it's abuse potential as a smart drug. Apparently, people out in the world take it cuz they want to get more done...It gets diverted and it gets sold on the street. My personal experience is that Nuvigil can cause an occasional burst of speedy euphoria, but it is much more subdued than the Adderall kind and rarely lasts past the first week. 2) It is expensive. Prohibitively so, if you are uninsured. Neither drug is available in generic. Provigil's patent has run out but some swift and dirty maneuvering has allowed them to postpone the deluge of generic competition. Nuvigil and Provigil costs a little over 10 dollars per pill. Even at only 1 pill per day, not too many people would pay this out of their own pocket. My experience in taking the drug while detoxing was that, while I was sleepy, I didn't have the hopeless shell feeling that comes from a speed detox. I felt little depression and was able to participate in the world. Post acute detox, I continued to take it and my dosage was raised to a narcolepsy dose because it was beginning to lose effectivness. I have been on that dose ever since and it is usually effective. Why keep taking it? It keeps the cravings for Adderall at bay. It feeds the part of me that has always required that feeling..speed freaks know what I mean. It cures the dysthymic depression that I have had for decades. What it doesn't do is alter your appetite or cause weight loss, nor does it cause men/women to fall in love with you, no delusions of grandeur or psychosis and it wont turn you into a slave that would sell their soul to get more (like our friend Addy)and the really weird thing about this drug is that you can stay awake and function nicely for 24 hours w/o sleep but if you want to sleep, just lay down and close your eyes and you shall...Incidentally, no one is entirely sure how the drug works, biologically. So, in essence, Provigil/modafinil is not the perfect answer for us hopeless speed freaks, but it is much more than we have had to date. And frankly, I don't think anyone in BigPharm is busy working on a detox med for Adderall....I guess the demand isn't as high as it is for the opiate substitutes. Perhaps this is because people underestimate the excruciating pain of a speed detox, claiming it is purely psychological, therefore not nearly as harsh as opiate w/d. I disagree. Psychological pain hurts just as much as any other kind, particularly when accompanied by suicidal thoughts, lethargy, hopelessness, and inability to function. So, people who are serious about detoxing from the Adderall beast, ask your Dr. about prescribing this. Find the links on NIH website about the trials and take them with you to your appointment. If you are uninsured you can try Nuvigil free with a coupon from the manufacturer as they are still new and aggressively marketing. You could at least get enough to see you through a horrendous detox.

Dont do it people. Appreciate your life and your natural mental state as it is without this evil drug. Talk about a devil in disguise! Don't pump your brain full of mental steroids. Anything that makes you feel that good and makes you that productive, is sure to have a whole host of serious consequences to follow. Don't believe me? Go ahead, try it then. Join the crowd. Good luck after long term use though. Watch this drug rob you of what's really important in life. Trust me, it will do just that and it will take time before u can function normally again without it. Remember my words friends. I speak from personal experience and, more importantly, the facts are facts. Those who defend adderrAll, are most likely either in denial, looking for ways to justify their legal drug use so that they don't feel guilty about what's really going on, or theyre still in the early stages of taking the drug, and have not yet experienced the inevitable down- side of what is to come. Like someone else said, if this helps even one person to stop taking the drug or never take it at all , then it was worth the time I took to type this. Good luck people.

All the people I see here that are having issues are abusing the drug. If you would take it as direct you wouldn't have any problems. You don't take it before a test or when you're going to exercise. You take it once in the morning and thats it. Like most medications (vicodin, zanax, etc) when you abuse it is when problems begin to arise. If you'd just take it like you're supposed to you would be able to reap it's benefits. Sheesh!

lets see i took my first addy about 5 months ago before a lacrosse game.my friend had given it to me because i was feeling very low and lathargic that day...the feeling was amazing. i play goalie in lacrosse and we have to be very energetic and alert...the problem is i have pretty bad add so its hard to make those saves on quik unexspected shots. but when i was on addy it was nothing, i could save a 90mph shot with ease and could rocket the ball down the feild before enybody even relized i made the save. i was a tank and it felt amazing...i freekin loved it

since i had acess to addys at home i began taking them before every game... i told myself id be fine,that since i have add it wasnt considered abusing the drug. that was good until i started taking them before practices too. i was starting on my first year of lacrosse over a kid who had 5 years of exsperience on me. nothing could stop me, nothing could bring me down....

finaly my mom caught me and started to hide her addys...i couldnt sleep, i couldnt focus in school, and worst of all i lost my edge in lacrosse. i was adicted and i knew it.... i was only 14 years old!!! way to young for that crap... her i am 3 months later... ive been cleen and am starting to be able to function normaly on my own...i was so caught up in tht crap i didnt even relise that i had lost 30 pounds.

i am now working out and pushing myse;f to new limits without this worthless drug i wake up and run 4 miles every morning just to have football practice afterwords...and guess what it feels great!!!

so pretty much the morale to my story is that (and pleadse excuse my french) dont be a fucking idiot like me and try to use this shit as a way to hipe up your game in sports...take it if you realy truly need it. theres just as good and healthier ways to become a better athlete

thank you for reeding this lausy excuse for a story and plese remember what i said.

I was prescribed adderral in order to kick a habit I have with pain killers. My plan is to use adderral in place of Norco, so that I can get off of the pain pills by using a legitimate prescription. I do have ADD. However, for the past two days (I've take adderral for about 4 days now) I have felt so energetic and great at first, then depleted, depressed, anti-social and out of it by evening time. I can't act like myself and this is not a good feeling. Today, as I drove down the mountains from Big Bear, I literally almost passed out at the wheel after taking my second dose of adderral. Is blacking out, mood swings, depression, lethargy and the inability to be social or happy part of this drug's effect. If so, how is it worth taking.

I am 46 years old. I am divorced after nearly 20 yrs of marriage to a workaholic. I was a stay at home mother and my Daughter & Son are 22 & 20, respectively.

After the birth of my son, I experienced post partum depression. At the time, I stumbled through without treatment. I now believe the post partum depression carried on for years and was compounded by a low grade unipolar depression. The depression was likely there for yrs but in a low level undercurrent

My spouse and I lived far from both of our families. My husband worked long hours and was addicted to working hard and always hyperfocused on money and work. He loved me but always very low key in showing it. I was the opposite. Because of this along with my emotional immaturity as a young mother and wife, I interpreted his lack of expression as not really loving me. I knew he did but the frustration of wanting more emoting overtook my ability to handle the feeling of isolation and rejection.

I must add that stay at home mothers can often feel lonely and isolated especially when their husband works so hard and long. These men feel a strong sense to provide money as a way to show commitment and integrity. Often these husbands feel unappreciated and frustrated because they feel they ARE showing love and support through constant work. Problem is - they come home exhausted and want to decompress by sitting still or being alone.

The stay at home mom may seek the opposite and looks to spend time with her ever absent husband as well as relief from isolation and loneliness. Her way of showing love and dedication is through family interaction with her spouse and children. Obviously these diametric oppositions set the stage for problems that may interfere with the marriage.

No person is wrong or right. They are simply doing different tasks to be supportive and express love. Because both methods are extremes, the needs expressed by the other spouse are often met with feeling unappreciated and causes both to shut down - and or argue. In some cases where people are not argumentative by nature - they sweep it under the rug and do not address it at all, further intensifying the issues as problems snowball.

Depression on either side may be exacerbated or come to light when these oppositions occur. Depression undiagnosed, untreated or ignored may intensify and the outcome may be worse as to how the spouses react and recover.

For many addicts, depression is the root of their DOC. Having chronic or untreated recurring depression is draining on the person who has it as well as those around them. Because of social stigma, lack of insurance and low economic income, many cases of depression go unchecked. Some people do not even realize they are feeling depression and it comes out as anger or dissatisfaction or acting out in manners to which are uncommon for them. This may be affairs, drinking, gambling, and most certainly drug usage. WHY?

Because depression is a painful experience. It is isolating in of itself and leaves the sufferer with feelings of guilt and shame. Perhaps they cry or sleep more and tell everyone they are fine, afraid of the reaction. Maybe they do not know how to express what they feel or afraid to. A controlling spouse who is working hard may not be as receptive or know how to handle or recognize depression. Those who have trouble dealing with expressing uncomfortable issues may ignore, become upset with their spouse for their depression, and or work more to escape the evidence.

As a result, the depressed person may spiral into darker depths to the point of hospitalization at which point the problem MUST be addressed. It is unavoidable.

As people move through this process of understanding and recovery, there is a reprieve on both sides and things can return to a point of relative homeostasis or perhaps even improved quality of life and understanding.

In other cases, chronic depression may initially resolve, but continues as time progresses. Recurring depression is not fun for those who have experienced it. No one with depression welcomes the bad feelings and stigma along with failure it brings. To have to tell someone you feel bad AGAIN is scary. Will the person become angry? Will they leave you? How long will this continue? Will this depression ever abate?

At this point - many addictions or results can take place. Some turn to the high of wanting to feel more than pain: so they turn to drugs or affairs to stop the agony they feel.

Anyone having depression of any magnitude at one point or another knows that relief can never be too immediate. No matter what age or walk of life, it can debilitate a person - and the feelings of failure and potential loss of employment, family and quality of life loom heavy.

Pressure from High School, College, work, unemployment, child rearing, stressful situations can cause depression either temporary or long term.

To seek relief is not uncommon and it may come in the form of a drug such as Aderall. Innocently enough. or not so.

I started taking it when after 6 yrs post divorce, I was unable to find work in this horrid economy. I was middle aged, alone, and isolated. My college degree and age along with the terrible economy crash left me broken, scared and depressed again.

I went back to take classes in continuing education (2 separate) to improve my chances of landing a job. I was unable to handle the intensity and work load of the first class. I had no idea how it would be humanly possible to cover, learn and pass this material in the time span given. I could not focus.

My Dr prescribed mixed salts because I could not afford ER Vynase. I did not have insurance and not enough money to cover brand ER. I took IR.

It helped me focus and have energy. One of the key elements with depression is to lack energy, motivation and terrible feelings of failure as a result of not being able to meet obligations. I was out of options and needed help.

It worked. I passed the class and exceeded the expectations. The medicine caused a rush and it was too much at times, so I tried to take half at a time and stagger it to avoid extreme euphoria.

I began the next class and there was far more info and testing involved. Money was running out. I was depressed and though I would take a day to two days break from the drug, I had to go back on it to do the coursework. Otherwise I could not do it. I just could not.

I do have ADD and it was appropriate to have a script for the medication.

It did it's job but there is a down side.

If you are depressed, under extreme pressure to succeed or face consequences that leave you on the street without a home, money or any semblance of life, you can abuse this drug. You can become dependent on it.

After some time, the effect of euphoria may wear off and some will use more to get a high to feel more motivated. Some use it to pull all nighters to catch up.

The down side is that coming off the medication or relying too heavily on it at times can have negative effects: EXTREME exhaustion upon withdrawing. EXTREME depression upon withdrawing or taking too much or staying up too long while on it. SEVERE mood swings on it or off it while withdrawing.

A life that is not satisfactory and or empty feels pretty bad. Being at the end of your options is not a great feeling, either. Being isolated and alone adds to it all.

The drug becomes both an aid and a foe.

The key is to make sure it is not abused. That if you can hang on and get depression help if you are out of work and have no money or insurance, you can get off the drug and improve. The initial crash can feel absolutely endless and pretty bad. It does not last - and this needs to be kept in mind. It won't be there forever - the effects are yuck when coming off. I can't describe how yuck they are because everyone experiences it differently. But from all accounts - I want to have hope and believe this drug does not have to take the place of curing my life problems - and that it does not have to be overly used. That my life IS worth something and I am taking steps to make it better even if I am not yet there.

Feeling out of control, lacking motivation and depression can insight a person to turn to drugs as a way to avoid the pain of isolation.

It is not the only answer. If you are abusing the drug and want to get off it, PLEASE realize the comedown can be harsh and DO NOT GIVE UP. Remind yourself that while it is a present and bad feeling, it will lessen as you go through the withdrawal.

If you must take it and it is prescribed, use it as directed and take care of yourself. Do not over medicate and do not pull all nighters on a regular basis. The entire purpose for the medicine will become your enemy and cause the opposite of productiveness if this happens on a routine basis.

I pray for all of you. I pray for myself. Please accept my message as an experience that offers hope to you, myself and our future.

Blessings

I have just read Everyones story. I got all y'all bet. I am 21 and play college baseball I live two separate lives. I am prob gonna die soon cause I can't quit popping adderall. I got q serious problem I can't up to 15 30maddition 24hrs and stay up 4-6 days straigh with no sleep.I am killing myself and can't stop.

I am writing this cause I've been up for 3 days straight. I picked up my script 3 days ago (60 30mg) and jus went crazy popping 4 at a time every 3 hrs. I went golfing today and took 15 of my pills during a 18holes.. I am still popping them I jus popped 2 cause I am trying to write this story.. Y'all ain't addicted I am trying to find someones story who takes them like I do but can't.. I havnt told a sole about my addiction! My mom, friends, even girlfriend doesn't have a clue nobody knows but they will soon because I am at a server overdose right now and I am about to call the cops I jus threw up blood.

Well that's my story Rookies...

Adderal is satan on earth, it has destroyed my life, and it will destroy yours if you so choose to use it. This drug messes with your mind in a way so negative and disturbing there are no words to describe it. Yeah sure while your high on it, everything is just great, but when it wears off all you want is more just to try and avoid the crash. To the point your at 120mg to maybe even 200mg. Even refusing to try and maybe begin to calm yourself down to get some rest. No there is no rest, the Adderall owns you and tells you the drug is more important than food, sleep and family. It has taken all natural emotion away from my life. Not having any enjoyment in things I once loved. Life while high on Adderal is entertaining and not boring. Life on the comedown, is hell on earth. Its like your drowning in your own darkness. I am now a full blown addict, and don't even know who I am anymore. My mind has gone up and down over 30 times just in writing this. I've tried to quit over 20 times. From cold turkey to tapering off. Never ends up working. And now that I am prescribed a all time high daily dose of 90mg. I'm sure my insanity and weight loss and memory loss and confusion and tears and darkness will continue to get worse. Yes people I was normal before this drug.For the love of God if you are thinking of even trying it just once, please don't do it. Cause once will end up being way more than you bargained for. May god be with you all who are dealing with what I am. Perhaps there are some out there that found a way to stop, I'd love to hear your story. I'd also love to hear from those who can relate to the pain I am going through.

Adderall has ruined my life too. I feel like i dont know myself either.. it is destrying my relationship with my boyfriend. I do not know what to do i am 20 years old and have been takin adderall for over a year. I do not know if i can ever quit. I panic about everything and get mad over little things. I find myself in a really good mood to a really bad mood. I feel paranoid sometimes. Im literally depressed and do not know what to do. I suggest nobody take the drug it takes over your life.

Dear PLEASE EVERYONE READ THIS I DON'T WANT OFFEND JUST HELP OTHER PEOPLE GOING DOWN THIS ROAD, I would just like to tell you to screw off! DO NOT JUDGE ME UNTIL YOU WALK IN MY SHOES!! I am 28 years old and I have to kids, and a husband who is currently deployed to Afghanistan. I was on aderall for almost 2 years. I did have it perscribed, and shortly after I got on it, my addiction came into play. I started changing the dose constanly so that I could get a new script. I would also make up many creative lies to get more and more. Eventually I turned into a huge mess. Shortly after my husband deployed, I felt hopeless and like I just couldnt keep up with everything with out aderral. I began taking more and more until I got up to taking 7 to 8 pills each day. I DID feel so guilty about my kids. I was often depressed and would think that my children would be better off with someone else (not that I would EVER give them up). I just felt like i was such a loser but I still kept taking them. About 2 weeks ago, I put myself in for treatment. It was a short treatment because I signed out early so that I would be able to talk to my husband finally. But, it definatly steered me in the right direction. I have bee clean ever since and never want to take them again. I do get cravings but I think of my kids and my husband. One thing I have learned throughout this whole ordeal is that you can not judge anyone with a mental illness or addiction. Addiction IS a disease, rather people believe it or not. Its a very real, and serious illness. And to all the addicts out there, I hope you soon realize that you CAN get better! You can quit using! It just takes time. Its one of the hardest things that you will ever have to do in your life, but, oh, so worth it!

Probably not worth taking. The first few highs are pretty much the only enjoyment you are going to get from this drug before it turns your life into utter shit. It is insanely difficult to get off of if you value productivity at all. Unfortunately, the diminishing returns are rapid and irreversible. Until the pharmaceutical companies find a better solution to managing bad grades, I am perfectly content with my status as a D student.

These stories are so compelling and really help me understand the full extent of the amphetamine problem. My husband refuses to believe he has a problem, but all of the signs are there. He finally starting seeing a doctor for his addiction to opiates and was prescribed suboxone. He still drinks while taking the suboxone, but was doing much better than when he was in active opiate addiction. Then after one visit to his psychiatrist, he said that he was diagnosed with adult ADD and prescribed medication for it. I did not realize at first that the medicine shouldn't really be prescribed to people with a history of addiction. I would think that his addiction specialist doctor should have known that. After a few months of my husband being on the medication, I realized that he had a problem. His weight loss was drastic and I can't believe that his doctor couldn't tell that he had a problem just by looking at him. He definitely has a way to manipulate the health professionals. But these people are supposed to be experts in addiction. He only snorts the medicine and always runs out before he is due for his next prescription. He moods are miserable and erratic, but as soon as he takes that first dose of medicine, he is much nicer. It is an emotional rollercoaster. He is either really nice to me or blaming me for all of his problems and resentful of me. I find that very ironic, since I am the one who has been living with an addict for 15 years. One month he actually made me hold his medicine and give him one pill a day. But when I would give it to him, he wouldn't take it in front of me and would snort it later. Then he finally pressured me into giving him the rest of the pills. This whole situation is riduculous. I feel like his doctor made a problem for him that didn't exist before. He was dealing with enough addiction issues without adding a new one. He loves the way the medicine makes him feel and it actually does help with his ADD, but he by all purposes and addict and has a propensity to abuse any good thing. Recently he has been craving cocaine because he is all out of his medicine. I don't know what do do for him. But I guess it is someithing he has to deal with himself. Because as we all know, addicts do not like to be told what to do. I just always feel like I am waiting for the next brick to fall. I am trying to hold it together for my two young children or I think I would probably have separated from him. Eventhough, he feels like the one who is being done wrong because I call him out when he is crushing up his pills when he is around the kids and just for simply abusing his medicine. My kids have asked me why there is a hammer and big rocks in Daddy's office. Any advice that anyone could give me would be greatly appreciated. I just can't believe that a medicine this destructive is being dispensed out like candy, especially to people with addiction history. To make it worse, my husband pays alot of money every month to see psychiatrist. Thank you all for listening.

I have a grandson who for years (since age 5 now 26) was diagnosed with ADHD and he was recently prescribed Adderall XR because he cannot find nor keep a job. He does not sleep at nights or he sleeps all of the time. He constantly paces up and down the floor. He is constantly eating and he smokes like a freight train. He has been off all ADHD medication for over 8 years and his life has been wrecked by not being on medication. Because he was on so much as a youngster Adderall is the on ADHD medication that works. As with all medication it must be taken properly and only taken if prescribed by a Doctor. Any class A narcotic will be dangerous if taken without the supervision of a Doctor. Kids if you are not ADHD don't be self medicating just so you can do better in school get a tutor or talk to your parents. For those that have ADHD work closely with your doctor and be monitored closely. Best of luck to each of you.

I am a 21 year old college student and ever since I was in first grade I always had trouble concentrating in school. The teacher would be speaking and I would be thinking about something else that’s totally off subject. My concentrating problem really started to affect me this past semester in school. The classes were very hard and I wasn’t doing well and the problem was that I couldn’t concentrate. I talked to my parents and doctor and I got prescribed to adderall, the 30mg one. WOW!! I was able to concentrate in school so much better and improved on all of homework, essays, etc. Also all of my grades improved and ended up passing all of my five very difficult classes. Some of the side effects did affect me I lost some weight because adderall makes you lose your appetite. Also since adderall makes you awake and alert I have trouble sleeping at night sometimes. If you have A.D.D, A.D.H.D, or have trouble concentrating with things I would say that adderall is helpful but please don’t take it for any other reason besides that because there are other side effects of this drug that are more dangerous and could really harm you.

A month ago me and a friend decided to try Aderall. Because she has ADD, it was easy to get. Each of us only took about 40 mgs, but within the hour we were both extremely happy and feeling great. This lasted for the entire day, being XR pills. Later we still had that 'high' feeling and decided to on top of Aderall, have some Advil as well. And to add to that, a lot of rockstar and monster. From later research, mixing pills and sugary drinks can make the effects of Aderall higher, and we continued to feel great. However that day we did not eat very much, and drank a ton because Aderall can make you extremely thirsty. That night however, when we both went home and logged onto Facebook, we were both really paranoid. for some crazy reason we thought we were going to die because of it. Online we found that Overdosing on Aderall can cause insomnia, a sleeping disorder. Both of us said, Whatever, one day without sleep doesn't matter.

That night was the worst I've ever felt. I stayed up until 4am videochatting, when i finally decided to try to fall asleep. every 30 min i would get up to get some water, and finally when the sun started coming up at 6am i decided to get out of bed because obviously i wasn't going to sleep. i texted my friend and she too had not slept the entire night. I felt HORRIBLE. that horrible night was not worth the daytime bliss, and it was the scariest experience of my life.

I'm only 14.

hey, i keep reading all the stories of overdosing or becoming addicted. i was just planning to get a few pills and take them one once a week in the morning. i am a student, but i was gonna use it to study/cram vocabulary for japanese. i dont have class for it, im just learning it by myself and wanted to see if it could help. (im takin omega-3...that shits mandatory for a better life imo)

since im smart about this kinda stuff and wont take too much er anything, how will it effect my studies? will i be able to memorize the words a lot better? or will i just be able to sit down and study them for a lot longer than usual? thanks for any help!

I'm a 19 year old girl and I don't have any form of ADD or ADHD. I took adderall for the first time though last week, it was 25 mg serta (I think thats how you spell it) and nothing happened. So the next day I tried again and I took around noon. Again it did nothing and I even took a nap around three p.m. So the day after this I was frustrated cause it wasn't doing anything to me so I took 25 mg again then waited a half hour and took another 25 mg. It still did nothing but make me a little nauseous. I just wanted some advice on this, has it happened to anyone else? I'm not sure if these means I have add or if it's something that just happens occasionally.

Im 19 and addicted to adderall. Heres my story: My counsler advised me to get adderall because i mentioned i had trouble focusing in class. The next thing i know i had a perscription to adderall. I took it normally one 20mg xr pill a day for a couple months. Then i started abusing it. Ive been abusing it for about 3 years now. I take it everytime i know i am drinking. I havent drank without adderall in 3 years (and im a heavy drinker). I love the feeling it gives me when im drinking. It makes me drink so much and makes me social. I would stay up 3-4 days on end. i snorted 26 adderall in 2 days. I thought i was just going through a phase but i soon realized i couldnt go out at night and drink unless i had adderall. I refuse to drink without adderall and have gone to crazy extremes to get adderall because i always run out before i can get my perscription filled again. My friends take it occasionally but they have no idea how severe my addiction is. I also take it for school sometimes but it doesnt effect me how it used to. It makes me extremtly anxious/paranoid and makes me not talk, which is weird. I feel like whenever im on it everyone knows im messed up on something and i can never get what i want to say to someone out the right way. The effects are totally reverse when i take it while im drinking though. I talk my head off. Addeall has literally screwed my life up. Its made me obbsessed with my weight and ill take it so i dont eat. Adderall is the worst thing to ever prescribe anyone. I wish i wouldve never been prescribed to adderall. If your ever offered adderall seriously dont take it, it is not worth it. Ive offered so many people adderall because they needed it for school and i feel so horrible because some of them are now addicted too. I dont understand why adderall is even prescribed its classified in the same category as cocaine. I hate adderall because its taken over my life. I think about adderall all the time and always am talking about it. To anyone who is reading this: stay away from adderall its not worth it.

When I was a kid, about eight, my parents started me on ritalin to get my behavior under control. I was hyper and imaginative, like many healthy young daydreamers, but the school had them scared with all kinds of horror stories about what happens to kids like that who can't get in line with the system. I was strong willed and intelligent, and so it made me easier to manage for all the authorities in my life to keep me in a drug-induced stupor, which is precisely what they did. In time, I developed a resistance, so they upped the dosage. In time, the drug stunted my growth. I had no apetite, ever, and was dangerously underwieght for most of my adolesence. When I went to highschool, they switched me to aderall, because the ritalin was no longer effective. Because of the drugs I was forced to take as a child, I was not able to develop as a normal person might. There are big holes in my memory, lasting months and even years, and many of the precious experiences which I could have had were denied to me, or worse, I can't remember them. The point is, I was somewhat difficult to manage as a child, and the adults in my life, rather than exert the effort and dedication to raise me properly, they took the easier route. They had already decided, at that very early stage in my development, that I needed correction to fit into their conception of who I should be as opposed to who I was and the unique individual into whom I was developing. Rather than accept me, they tried to alter me, with the result of great damage to my personhood and individuality. I wasn't able to start my life, as a distinct human being with my own idiosyncracies and eccentricities, until I was old enough to take myself off of the drugs.

The things which the authorities saw in me as needing corrections were based on their prejudices and general ignorance of my personality, nascent as it may have been. Those things are, and were, precisely the things which define me today as a whole, unique, and wonderful person. By imposing their norms on me, they attempted to destroy the things which made me an individual, and their efforts resulted in a dysfunctional and destroyed childhood. They and their drugs infused me with the understanding at that very impressionable age that I was wrong and inferior, and my self-esteem suffers to this day.

ADD/HD are the most over diagnosed disorders in this country. Kids are tough, and parents are pressured into taking the easy route of medicating their children to make them easier to manage. This is deeply, deeply wrong. Parenting isn't supposed to be easy, and to chemically alter a developing personality has the effect of destroying that person's potential. Methamphetamines are addictive, have truly devastating side-effects that last much, much longer than most people anticipate, and will reverberate throughout the course of that person's life in ways which are both profound and impossible to predict.

If you are a parent and you are feeling the pressure to alter your child's brain to make it easier for yourself, DON'T. You love your child, you want them to do well in life--- but these drugs (ritalin, aderall, et. all) are destructive. You do not have the right to chemically dictate the development of another human being, even if you have the best of intentions. Beyond that, the things which might make your child difficult to handle are also the things which make your child a unique human being. Being a good parent is hard, its always been. If school officials or therapists are pressuring you to impose a drug regimen on your growing child, you must resist them; they do not love your child, and do not care about the long term effects of this form of chemical pacification--- it makes their job easier, but the damage done to your child's development will be irreparable. Besides which, as I mentioned earlier, these disorders (ADD/HD, etc) are easily the most over-diagnosed conditions, and the rubric for these diagnoses are astoundingly vague and cover such a broad range of behaviors so as to make them a catch-all for any kid who displays a modicum of will or energy. These drugs are no good for anyone but school administrators and pharmaceutical corporations.

If you love your children, you will let them grow, and never, ever give them these drugs. I wish I could have my childhood back. It was taken from me by these drugs. Again, if you are being pressured to give these drugs to your child, DO NOT DO IT. They deserve the chance to be themselves, to be who they were born to be, not who Pfizer or your school principal thinks they should be.

Male, 21 Well here goes something, When I was 8 or 9 I was very hyper and always doing something (unusual for a child…Lol), so my Mom wanted to medicate me for ADHD, but the decision was ultimately mine to make, so I opted out. When I was 12, I noticed the lack of desire to do schoolwork and some everyday things such as chores (also weird… ha), and again the subject of meds was brought up and I said NO!! ; Mostly due to the fact that I didn’t want chemicals changing my brain at such a crucial point in my overall cerebral development (thanks Discovery). I figured if I let my brain go lazy this early by giving it hand outs, then it would develop without the need to produce the chemicals provided by the pill, and ultimately think “why should I even try again if they’re already there”. That would not be a good trait for a brain that is still trying to establish a sense of what the norm should be in order to function! My brain was still in the process of setting a roadmap so it can go into coast mode for the rest of my life. I think parents that give they’re child such a powerful chemical, at such a crucial time, just to have them get better grades in school are CRAZY (granted there are extenuating circumstances where such an action is necessary).

I went though high school still lacking a desire for schoolwork, and my grades reflected such, to the tee. I’d either get D’s or F’s, only getting good grades (A’s and B’s) in the classes that had great teachers who actually liked their job’s (chem, psych, algebra, and geometry), because the interest was there. I hate English, which is very apparent in my many run-on sentences and misplaced commas. Also I’ve never liked History, like when is a dude going to walk up to me and say “give me all your money….. Or, if you can tell me who the general for the north was in the Becksburgh battle of 1589, I’ll give you a hundred-dollar bill, and send you on your way! Sorry for the rant, but WTF. I recently started a very-very hard college, learning to program games, and am at the point where I feel my brain is done determining what the norm should be for “coast mode”. I had a 12 page paper due at awhile back at the local community college for my AA, and as usual I waited till the night before it was due. A friend called me and we were just talking about normal stuff when I said I got to go, because I had to write a huge paper due in like 8 hours, he said he had extra 25mg Adderall XR’s, and if I wanted I could swing by and pick one up; to which I said hell yeah having heard of the wonders it can allow one to accomplish. He warned if I got more hyper then I didn’t have ADD, but I ended up being more focused than ever before. And that was the beginning of the end. LOL JK!!!!

Having seen what it could do to my lack of discipline when it came to school work I saw my doctor because I need all A’s to guarantee a good job after my new college. I ended up telling him my experience with the Adderall pill taken a year before and he gave me some BS test that would diagnose 99% of America with ADD. One question was “do you struggle to start or finish task that you think of as hard” bull-honkey, right? He then wrote me a scrip of 10mg regular Adderall. I’ve since been on it for a month and a half with no major side effect. Mostly insomnia, loss of appetite, faster pulse, the occasional pounding heart at night after taking 3 doses spread throughout the day (like 4-5 hours apart), some soreness from just sitting there not moving, eye aches from focusing to much, and once when trying to determine the right dose for me, I took like 20mg at once and experienced the so-called “rush” only to vomit and feel like crap. I then got the worst headache I’ve ever had in my life (I am good with pain; usually being able to think it away) for 2 hours, about 6 hours after ingesting them. I won’t be doing that again; it wasn’t worth it, AT ALL.

When I take 15mg, I basically sit in class, my mind clear as hell, no random sidetracking thoughts, no jittering my leg (It never was bad at all, like a normal up and down of my heel) just focused and to the point. Just the other day I was in my Trig class, we were going over some fundamental stuff and had to take an evaluation test with no calculator! I totally forgot how to turn a fraction into a decimal, because I forgot how to do long division a while ago (the fraction was 1148/321), so I worked on it for like 40 minutes; something I would have just given up on, pre-Adderall. I ended getting the right answer and I guess after my teacher saw my two full-pages of work for such a simple problem he must have been like, WTF? It turns out I found a new way to switch fractions into decimals, even though my method is way harder and takes like ten times longer than long division, it works!!!! I was ecstatic and almost freaked out

For the people struggling with taking Adderall as a recreational drug, I feel for you. The only way to stop taking them is to slowly cut your dose’s down gradually, day by day; granted your brain will not fully reset, and produce pre-Adderall levels of dopamine for as many as five years; but for users only a year into (I hate to say it) “abuse” it can be as little as 6 months. Just remember your brain has basically stopped producing dopamine (the chemical that allows us to fully experience the feeling of pleasure) and must relearn the ability to reach a state of equilibrium, due to the repeated “freebies” it was receiving from the chemicals supplied by the pill. It would have otherwise had to work to make the dopamine on its own. Let’s face it, if you think of it from your brains perspective “Your Brain- why should I work to make dopamine and use up my own inventory of precious chemicals, time, and energy to make dopamine when dopamine’s already there”. THERE IS HOPE, some anti- depressants can help curb the loss of the feeling well. Don’t take painkillers, their just doing basically the same thing; releasing “feel good” chemicals that are just a patch. Anyone who’s worn a band-aid (patch) knows that you could superglue that damn thing on, but with time, it will still fall off.

Well, I take this drug and so far it is helping me to focus and get things done. I am here because I don't want to be addicted so I use responsibly and educate myself. I noticed that some stories are bogus. They blame amphetamine while in fact they already had a problem with an other drug. Some it is because they snort it or inject it. others just don't understand that if you don't take it for few days it will work as good as before. I believe that the trick is to use responsibly and with moderation. (Moderation has better taste. That if they didn't abuse amphetamine it would be something else. High probability of uneducated people or underage. So because of those minorities everybody is penalized. I insist, they are only a minorities. 80% and more people that use amphetamine do not abuse it but whatever this is socialist big government America. I gotta love the brainless sheep. Ron Paul is my man.

My husband has abused aderall for over 10 years and now claims to be trying to quit. This is for everybody who is getting hooked on to this drug; pls stop it right now... If you can't do it yourself, get help. Talk to you doc about your intentions and he/she will surely help. When I met my husband and married him, he was on a break from the pills and had subtly mentioned about his past addiction and had said thts nothing I would be worried about as it's in the past. He started taking it again with the excuse of futher education. This was a year ago. Today, it's almost 1.5years since we are married and he still takes them. It is extremely stressful and hurtful to watch somebody you love letting some stupid drug consume his life. Also, the constant change in personality becomes highly impossible to live with for people around. I'm not able to concentrate on my and our future as the present is so fucked up. Most of all, he doesn't even think he's wrong and expects me to understand. He has been saying that he's working on quitting from close to a year now. Though the sleepless nights have reduced, I can't tell confidently if he's on his way to quits. I really want all of you posting in this forum to try other excercises which will help you in developing the skills of concentration instead of falling pry to this disgusting drug. These methods will take a longer time than these pills but not all shortcuts to good life succeed; especially not this one!!!

Hi,

I've been with my girlfriend for almost 4 years now when I was 17 and she was 19. Before that I had been sent away to a all boys boarding school for just over a year because of drug addiction, family problem, and other personal issues. After getting help for over a year and being sober I got to come home. I started working for my step dad again and that's where I met my girlfriend after only a couple months being home we started dating, she knew of my problems and what I went through, she never used drugs besides alcohol until she met me. After being home for couple months I went back to using cocaine. The first time my girlfriend did it was with me I got hooked right back on it and she started having a problem with it also, using it everday for for about a year and half. Sorry if I sound like I'm getting off topic, I just don't want to miss anything. I started taking adderall more whenever I could get it from people my brother also would give me some of his 90, 20mg generic adderall a month. Unfortunitaly, I got my girlfriend started on that as well, I became so addicted to adderall I slowly stopped using cocaine, didn't care for it anymore and I didn't like it I think the adderall had to do with it. I'm not or have never been percribed to it, me and my girlfriend would try to find it almost everyday until she went to the doctor and got percribed. She started off. With 30, 10mg a month then 30, 20mg and now 60, 20mg a month, we would split her percription every month and eventually I got really bad with it I would take more then half her percription which would cause huge fight and we would argue over it everyday. She's been percribed for 2 years now and over time it was ruiening our relationship I noticed she was getting worse then I was lying about it or saying she couldn't get her percription for the longest time she was saying she was only getting 30, 20mg a month a but would give me some almost everyday saying she got it from her friend, she would never show me her pill bottle until one day I found it and she was getting 60 a month this caused a lot fights me stressing her out daily because I would be ina bad mood and irritable if I didn't have it, for months she was always saying one day if this doesn't stop she's going to leave me I never thought she actually would do it until about 6 months ago she did for a month and I became a wreck and I finally snapped to reality and saw what I did and how different of a person I became because of adderall. We were broken up but still together and talked she completly cut me off from her percription and I stopped asking her because I didn't wanna fall back into that pattern, adderall was and did destory our relaionship, once we actually broke up she became worse with and was getting 60 a month and still buying it from people from what I heard because 60 a month wasn't enough to last her, I noticed she was becoming how I was mood swings, change in her personality, not being able to sleep, out drinking the whole night because she took so many a day she needs to drink to fall asleep. I've been off adderall for 2 months now still going through withdrawl but I don't wanna go back because I don't like the person I was and spending litterally $1,000 on it. But, most importantly I didn't lose my girlfriend. I look at her now and see how bad she's gotten with it and I feel terrible and responsible that it got to this point. She's seen a dramitic change in me since she broke with me and I honestly have changed and I'm not the person I was. I don't want to go down that road again, if I don't stop now how will I ever. I brought it up to her during one of our relationship talks that the majority of our problems and fights revolve around adderall and that we should stop taking it because its gonna end our relationship for good if it keeps upi told her that she has a problem and she's starting to act how I did, so dependent on it every single day not wanting to do anything if she doesn't always lying about it have it the list goes on. I told her she's got an addiction but she doesn't think so. I warned her if she doesn't take it easy on it that for her own good and for the sake of our relationshipthat I would call her doctor and tell her what's going on and how she's abusing her percription. She never took me seriously until one day which was about a month ago I called her doctor spoke to the receptioness told her who I was and my girlfriends name and info and asked to speak to her doctor and well of coarse its patient/doctor confidentiality and that legally I'm not allowed to with my girlfriends concent. I then told the her that I just wanted to let her doctor know that she's been abusing her percription pills and she said she would relay the message to the doctor. Within only 20 minutes I got a phone call from my girlfriend screaming at me, she was so angry at me she didn't talk to me for over a week until she finally called me she said her doctor cut her off which is what I would think any responsible doctor would do because of the huge risk and liability if something happend. So I believed her at first and then once we started hanging out I could tell she was on it she makes it very obvious not to mention she's a miserable person when she doesn't have them. I had no way to prove it though until last week when she was at work I searched around and found her pill bottle that she had just filled the day before so it was a full bottle minus a few. I took her adderall and got rid of it. The next morning she called and was so upset and crying but wouldn't tell me why because then she would be caught in a lie, she wouldn't go to school or get out of bed she brought up that she was just angry still because I called her doctor but I knew really why she was mad, I told her why this is being brought up now because she said she hasn't been taking them anymore. Well she said she's upset for a few other reasons but wouldn't say. 2 days later were hanging out and only because I had to find her adderall otherwise she won't get out of bed. She had left her purse in my car and I went to check and see if she had any because of how she was acting, sure enough she had 30, 25mg xr's with one of her girlfriends name on it, I left it because I didn't want to make it obvious. I apologize this is a long story and that I'm all over the place its just a mess how things are. I still am in shock that her doctor would keep giving her adderall after a phone call like that, and especially adderall the most abused and addictive percription pills..basically I'm just wondering what should I do? Part of me want to call her doctor again and let them have it I don't know what good that would do me and the risk of my girlfreind leaving me for good if I do. This is so stressful I just want and adderall needs to be out of our lives. If it doesn't break us up she's gonna have serious health issues. any advice or tip would be greatly appreciated!! Thank you in advance

I have ADD and had been on antidepressants for it for 2 years. The antidepressants weren't helping me as much as I would have liked, so I just switched to Adderall (which is spelled with 2 dd's). I just started it yesterday and felt like I could get done what I wanted to get done while at work. Most of the time I was having a hard time finishing what I needed to get done. However, I never felt the high that people are talking about. Maybe you only get it if you don't actually have ADD or ADHD. I feel focused and I feel like I want to do more because I can and I'm excited about it. It upsets me when I find something like this and read all of the stories about a high and an addiction to it by people who are abusing it, because its stories like these that make it hard for people like me to get the medication that I need. I think Adderall is a very good medication for people who need it and take it how it is prescribed. I'm on immunosuppressants as well for a kidney transplant. Even though there is no good effect, I'm sure my immunosuppressants would be much worse for an abuser's health, than Adderall. But I still need them. Unfortunately, there is no 100% fool proof way to detect if someone has a mental illness. So some people, like the people above, find ways to convince a doctor or buy them from a friend and as a result they make life much more difficult for people who actually have a mental illness. I believe the government needs to legalize street drugs, so some these people can get their high off crack and stop making a bad name for people who actually need the medication.

ADDREAL HAS RUINNED MY LIFE BUT IT HAS MADE IT EASYER AT THE VERY SAME TIME. THE PROS ARE AS GOOD AS THE CONS. I have been takeing adderal for 3 years. The first 6 months of takeing adderal where amazing. I couldnt belive how good takeing adderal felt. I loved how adderal made me feel and behave. In classes I felt like I could conquer every subject. After the 6 months the terrible things began; crashes,headaches,severe anxiety and the lost of interest in everything about life. to tell you the truth Adderal is my worst enemy and my best friend. It helps When i take it no more than twice a week but if i take it everyday(like im supposed to) its pure hell the anxiety and the irritability take over my life. Nonetheless,I do not regreat takeing adderal. Thank YOU for reading my story.

Ive been taking it for over year now just to study all night. No addiction problems whatsoever. No cravings at all. I have created a tolerance that is quite high though. It takes me between 2 and 4 20 mil xr to stay focused through the night. But when I am not studying I have never had the craving to take it.I may take it 4 to 5 times a month but that is it. Actually I hate the feeling of being on adderall, I only use because it helps me stay up and focus. 95% of my friends use it to study as well and none of them are addicted either.

I know I'm not the only one out there that can use it without being addicted, but it seems as if everyone on this site is so I just thought I'd put in my input.

im highly addicted to adderall for over 3 years and theres no doubt in my mind that im going ta quit anytime soon considering the fact that i need this pill jus ta get outta bed! The messed up part is NO ONE but a couple of my addict friends know that i mess with these and alot of the times i feel overwelmed with guilt for my fiance and 2 kids but these feeling jus want ta ,make me take more! i have alot of stories and if you wanna talk and compare adderall or expieriences email me at kristinagagnon@hotmail.com if i dont get back to you asap that means im in bed cuz im outta adderall but lets jus hope that wont happen....

My experience with Adderall is observing my boyfriend, 32 y.o. He has a history of addiction with ecstasy, cocaine, alcohol, weed, vicodin and so on. He says he was diagnosed with ADD, and the only symptom that I noticed was the constant movement of his right foot when he's hanging out watching tv. He says he needs it focus, to work because he has so many thoughts that this prescription drug helps him grab thoughts and hold on to them. And also he's able to work and concentrate for 8 hours straight. When he's off Adderall he's a very amiable person, very funny, and acts 'normal'. When he's on Adderrall he gets angry very easily, starting in the morning, he gets upset for silly things, and gets really mean. Then he does not drink any water all day, nor he eats, but smokes one cigarette after the other. Then at night, around 5 pm he starts drinking beers (between 6 and 10) and smokes weed non-stop. His hands get ice-cold when he's on Adderrall, and his voice sounds lower, and he seems dehydrated. Obviously he finds it difficult to sleep at night, sometimes he tales more than the 2 (20mg) pills he's supposed to take, because they don't kick in. Then he has been having difficulty finding it in pharmacies because of this national shortage. But then some way or another he finds it. But the days after he's off of it, he sleeps all day and all night for 3 days in a row. He has no motivation, and shows symptoms of depression. I think if we all took a test we would all be diagnosed with ADD, teenagers: their brain is not formed yet, I remember when I was in High School I could not focus either, I did not really study constantly, and of all that I studied I remember very little. Adults: it's normal to be able to concentrate less with age. it's nature. This medication like many others is over-prescribed. But I have a Degree from a prestigious University. I am not from the States, I'm from Europe, but I studied abroad and travelled the world. There are so many wonders in life, why damaging it with chemicals??????????? I only read about all the negative effects of all these drugs in the long run. So I don't understand why people fall for this. There's always a way to solve problems, it might not be easy, it could take years of therapy, group meetings, anything that does not involve taking pills. I read of people taking medication to get off anti-depressant. And I'm so upset thinking about these doctors prescribing all these drugs. It's all a conspiracy by Pharmaceutical Producers and the Government to fuck people up, make them slave, and make money off of them. I know family history of violence, drug abuse, sexual abuse, alcohol, or even simple emotional distance really screw people over, but that is not a good reason to make your life worse, playing with this kind of drug. The best way in my opinion is the natural way, coping with problems, looking inside yourself, and make right what might have been wrong before. You don't need Adderrall.

Like any other college students , I have the same stressful life and long journey of education. I been reading all these post for a couple days now and lets just say it does motivate to get off this drugs. I don't have ADD problem and studying was never a problem for me until that one day before finals when i didn;t have enough time to study for my finals. A friend suggested that i should aderall , if only i could turn back time and slap myself before i ingest that evil pill in me. SInce that day on, i went from taking it once a month , once a week, twice a week, and now almost everyday to study. However my story is not as extreme as many listed above but i understand where everyone come from. The lack of motivation, the lack of drive to do anything sober , yeah i got all of that feeling. I thought the drug was miracle gift that would improve my grades and everything, and now im getting average grades as everyone else in my class. At first i started making excuses of why i still taking these drugs (school, the happiness, the high, the confidence i felt ) but now those excuses are not even there no more. I don't feel happy or confidence or half the focus feeling i used to have .My mind is tripping, i can't think straight , i get paranoid and anxiety , and everytime i start to study i pop a pill, and when i don't get the full effect i keep taking more. I got arrested for possession went to jail , to rehab got out and now im still the same old me . My dream to go to med school luckily still a slight hope because my felony may get drop down to a misdemenour. This drug was my best friend and now its become the grim reaper that watch over me when i sleep. If anyone get a chance to read this , PLEASE STOP there are nothing that this drugs give you that you are not capable of doing. Get out of it while u can, before u get suck in so deep. Im praying lord to give me the strength to get out of this horrible addiction. And to everyone else that trying to get out , my wish go to you. Keep your head up, the high is only temporarily but the consequences will be there forever.

I have had random drug tests pull my name every month since August and passed every single one. Last month (november) i come up positive for amphetamine. The only person in the home that takes this is my child. I get her meds laid out every morning around 5 am. Now, usually I am very alert and focused. Now, being in my first trimester of pregnancy, I get foggy and extremely fatigued and I imagine I took the meds by mistake instead of my vitamin. HR said it made perfect sense and I lost my job anyway. No work, christmas time, new baby. I never even touched drugs and this stuff happens. :'( I am going to try to fight it, I'm not sure if I will have any luck, but if not I may not get another transportation job for a minimum of 3 years.

My entry I suppose is for anyone currently abusing the drug, and searching for a POSITIVE story, with barely any negative side effects.

I'm a 16 year old girl, attending high school.  I began using Adderall at the beginning of this school year to help me concentrate, and when I realized how many I was taking, I decided to take a break to see if I was addicted or suffering any psychotic effects.  I was taking about 90 mg a day, for about a week and a half.  I stopped, and the next day, sure, I felt pretty exhausted, but considering I had no more Adderall, I didn't even feel the need to go get any. 

Personally, whenever I'm in possession of the drug, it's all I can think about. Today, I've taken #7 30 mg pills, which is a lot, considering I'm 110 lbs and I'm reading on here about 30 year olds taking 10 mg a day..  Anyways, I've been using Adderall about once or twice a week for this whole school year.  My best advice to anyone, is to take a break (a week long), and see if you're suffering any symptoms of addiction or drug induced psychosis. 

I have never passed a core subject class, (though I am a highly intellectual person), with more than 70%. That is, until I started using Adderall.  I was done the whole, entire math unit for my class with 3 months left of the course.  My average is 90%, and my test averages are 95%.  It's incredible what Adderall can do, but that being said, I don't have an addictive personality at all.  I used meth at age 14 relatively regularly, and as soon as I 'decided' to quit, I did.  I often wonder if I'm addicted to Adderall, of course I do. But that's why I take breaks that are 1 to 2 weeks long. The worst effects I've dealt with, is the lack of sleep. I've never stayed up for more than 48 hours while under the influence of amphetamine, but the only time I get emotionally unstable (on or off the drug), is when it's been 24 hours no sleep. When this happens, I usually flush my stash and begin a break.  I'm sure some people would see this as a 'visitors circle', but it really isn't. I have my use under control, and also, as soon as finals are over and done with within the next two weeks, I'm planning on quitting.

I'm 29 yo and do not have ADD, i was brought up with strong morals, and both my parents love me.  I started drinking alcohol when i was 13 and I started taking amphetamines about 10 years ago.  I have a violent blackout alcohol problem, so to counteract blackouts and to stop losing everyone I care about, I took any speed that would at least help me not blackout and remedy my situation.  I drink more now than ever because its impossible to get drunk, let alone blackout.  Now I find myself being a near recluse and having to take serious time to talk myself out of ridiculous paranoid thoughts that deter my very social personality.  In the last 6 weeks, on average Ive slept 2 hours every 24.  I used to take no more than 70mg a day of adderall or about 1 gram of cocaine.  Recently I've taken whatever I find up to 580mg of adderall or 4grams of cocaine, but I know I would do more if presented the option.  Because of how long each one lasts i dont really do cocaine unless there's no adderall options.   At no huge surprise to me I have had chest pain.  It went from something that was barely noticeable while working out.  To recently having individuals hear and feel my heart beating while standing next to me.  I have no memory of trivial yet important things since ive abused.  I do not have health insurance and cannot miss work due to bills.   I am an athlete and trainer until recently as where my chest pains and bodily incapabilities have made me nearly stop completely.  I just want to know if anyone has any suggestions.  Obviously I have a problem, but is there a way ton remedy without attention or letting outside sources know?   Also, if my recent mental  deficiencies and near hallucinations are due to drugs or lack of sleep

adderall is dangerous... if you take too much at one time... or etc. I've taken 100 mg and honestly yes, that was not my best decision, that is where tremors, gnawing, grinding teeth, and i had that unknown fear come in. As well i was on 30mgs took three, and over time you can become different psychosis, auditory halluc., some hallucinations, but that is def created by paranoid thinking., for me the biggest thing of my addiction is the psychosis, where your inner versus outer relationships become entangled, where you lose contact with others, but if you overlook that negativity.... well you already are ahead anyway. drugs can be good drugs can be bad, but that is judged by your full look on it because i've become closer to something, ans farther away from reality, but this reality doesnt even know itself from fanatsy because who's to say who;s right, that;s where everything is created, if you see something bad.... all negative things are created,, like all bad side affects; tremors blah, but if it's good, you'll be the normal thing, creative, aware, and yeah, and usually if you overlook the things that scare you in our world right now, society like the horrible connotations of how awful it is to have a disease, i hope you go beyond the threshold..... i would say addiction is something we can hold on to, where we actually feel like we know something close, but it can go downhil with everyone else thinking oh this and that drug horrible! ah because in time society has been pushed away from truth of goodness in things.

please everyone..... dont be blameful of yourselfs, dont start thinking like youre doing something wrong, because the person next to you knows just as much,,,,, love all of you and hey if you do know youre doing something wrong stop.... you will stop if it affects you that much. and if not, find something you really love besides the feel of the drug, like something you've always dreamed of having, or your number one love to do, helping others, running, biking, singing, dancing, eating, people.

also think about the love of others, got nothing without one another.... leave a little room for people breathe in and out relax those uptight gogogog shoulders, and listen and ride your bike with your best friend tammy!

loveyouguys.

if you know what i mean.... everyone i wish you best.... we all gonna need it freal.

I didn't believe in ADHD and neither did my parents, thus, although I and they had been told by teachers and counselors that I may have ADHD, I was never diagnosed. I drank alcohol every day for ten years until I finally quit (apparently that is common for people with ADHD). I quiton my own no rehab, and thought this would solve many problems that it did not. 2 years after I quit, I read an article about ADHD and thought 'wow that sounds like me.' Despite my fear of having another drug rule my life, I found a doctor and got evaluated and it turned my life around. ADHD is a chemical imbalance, like depression except people on depression can get medication without getting dirty looks and having to explain themselves. I take a set dosage every day(one 20 mg extended release) to 'get high' but to give me the ability to focus. I still have to choose to focus, it's just I have that choice now. ADHD is not 'fixable.' I'm in my first year of law school now (I was a pool guy same time last year) and my biggest fear is I won't be able to get my medication. Yes I'm dependent on it in the same way as someone with depression or schizophrenia is dependent on their medication. (LawDawg2014@yahoo.com) Medication gives me the ability to do things I can't do without it such as: maintain healthy relationships, carry through on assignments, read books, etc.

Growing up I was always a straight A student. When I was 12, I moved to a new school district & entered Junior High School. My additude towards school took a turn for the worst. Doctors swore I was depressed, and put me on anti-depressants. Finally I went to a new doctor who carefully examined my behavior, which out ruled depression, but brought the attention of ADD. I was prescribed Adderall. At first things were great! My grades went from C's to A's, an I also lost a significant amount of weight. I was happy! I looked great, my grades made my parents proud, and I was social. I began smoking ciggerettes like it was my job! I would smoke a pack of cigs for lunch! It was to the point where my immune system was breaking down. I began getting sick all the time. After high school, this continued into college. Long story short, I'm not in college and I'm working. I tend to only take my adderall the days I work, that way I can take a break from smoking ! When I don't take my adderall, the smell of cigs makes me feel sick. I also drink plenty of water when I'm at work, but when night approaches I hit up the bathroom every half hour to pee! Everytime I go it's like I have been holding it in for hours!

I believe my 30 mg XR is too high of a dose for me.

Help? Im 16 yrs old, im about 5'7 145 lbs. I was addicted to vicodin for probably 5-8 months. I didnt take a large quanity at a time, but it was everyday quite a few times a day. I also did adderall every now and then, but i went on binges. Probably 90-210 mg of Xr in 24-48 hours. I recently quit pain pills, but i need some sort of upper to give me the energy and focus the vics did. So now i buy Adderall 30 mg xr by the script. I was diagnosed with adhd as a kid, but i was told it wasnt too serious. Im taking addys everyday now anywhere between 1 30mg to 3 or 4 in a day. if i dont have them everythings foggy.. I dont feel like myself..like everything is going wrong with me. Is this normal?( i also have bad anxiety/deppresion/panic attacks). When im off all of the pills i just wanna lay down and do abolutely nothing. i know im young, but i have a serious problem.. Can i please get some advice? Is there a way i can go to an outpatient rehab without my mom knowing since im a minor? Please email me at shorty _22_m16@hotmail.com PLEASE, I NEED SOME ADVICE, and i dont know how to check replys on this site. thank you all - Matt

I've always been a pretty smart kid, but definitely wasn't the most confident. I had so much homework to do in so little time so, I started taking Aderall from my brother; he had ADD but never took the pills. The first time I took 6 pills, (35mg)with about 4 cups of coffee, because I really needed to focus and get my schooling done. That night I had spanish class.....I never went to bed and was speaking fairly fluently by morning. It was the best feeling I've ever had. Sure, my legs and arms went numb, and my chest pounding out of my chest, but I got the test done in one day when usually it would have taken a week. I talked to people like I never had before, because it didn't matter what they thought, I was here and I was talking! I found it so easy to make friends, when before I always felt lonely and unimportant. I didn't go to bed for almost two days. The crash was terrible. I felt like I wasn't even alive. I felt like I was just moving through something called life. It was bad. Then I thought to myself, why not take more? You could get your energy back, be confident, and get all that homework done?! Then another side said, no, but I didn't listen because the craving was incredible. I couldn't believe that after one time I desperately wanted more. And I took more, this time only 4 pills. (20mg) I felt nothing. There was no rush. Time seemed not to even exist. I actually poked and pinched myself just to see if I could feel it so many times that I started bleeding. Now I want more, but know it's the worst thing for me. I just have so much homework and feel like I can't talk to people without it! I'm thinking about going back up to 6 pills again... 18 and addicted. Not a life to lead, but I feel that without Aderall, how can I make friends?? How can I get that confidence again?? How can I finish school in time?? It's not that I'm not smart, it's just too much work and not enough time. I think if I don't change or tell someone about this...my life is going to go south really quick. If anyone reads this post, don't mess with this stuff. Sure you have some great benefits in the beginning, but in the end, it ends up messing with you, and you will wish you never even laid eyes on it.

I began taking Adderall only a few months ago. I do not have a medical condition, I am a normal, healthy person who chose to experiment. I am in high school. This is the mindset I currently have on the drug: I take 30-40mg IR once every one/two weeks, a very minor and regulated pace. I am aware of side effects, and I've read many stories about how they should be avoided. However at my current pace I feel safe taking them. Emotionally, they make me very outgoing and enlightened. I usually become quite benevolent, though most of these feelings fade when the high is over. However when not on the drug I still remember the extent of how good natured the drug made me, and try to extract these feelings into my sober life. If you're going to use the drug, attempt to make yourself a better person by it as I do.

My advice to anyone who wishes to take the drug: Stay absolutely vigilant in analyzing your use of the drug. If you in any remote way feel dependent on the high to experience happiness, you're taking too much. All of the stories I hear of people taking it daily/several times a week end badly, I'm sure you will observe the same. Do not let the drug control you, be a greater person and realize when you do not need to take it, and abide to that realization. The human mind is capable of incredible happiness and fulfillment on its own, if you can find that without the use of drugs then you are a greater person than all of us.

I realy need to stop hyperfocusing... i only came on the web for 2 min to see if i could figure out why my addys were making me blush. (yes people, i was paranoid of an overdose... ya happy now? truths out) well i never got an answer to my question but i did read every flippin word on this blog and I just realized its nowhere near what i was looking for haha. I love how all the stories are 10 page essays because every body is medicated LMAO. Aderall is some impressive stuff! I dont even like reading! as you can tell by my careless grammar and horrible spelling. I have been using adderal for years as a self medicative scholastic enhancer. Just reacently i have convinced a well known and totally crooked psychiatrist to write me a prescription for it. 30mg twice daily. Id like to start by saying that im no different than anybody above, But I have only been on adderal for 3 months and already see how it could be heading for the worst. on one hand im lucky cause i dont really experiance withdraws after my week long monthly binge, On the other hand i have experianced slight halloucinations and I am starting to figure out just how serious this drug can be. I must say that I agree that the only way for me to have the desired effect from this med is to go with the 2 day on - 2 Day off idea. or just only take it when i really need it. The only problem is that when i have it in my possession i cant control the urge to take it! I wish i had someone to dispense it to me because i can see how benificial it could be if used wisely. In reality i really only need like 15mg to become motivated not 30. unfortunately i have very little self control. If i take one, im taking another 30min later, and then two more in a few hrs and then maybe three...etc. I just had an epifeny.......... if I can consciously know and except the fact that I can only get so high and I can only get the whole shabang if keep my tolerance low by taking it every other day or less, then thats where the addict in me can be used to my advantage. It will be easier to break the cycle knowing that i need to specifically for that purpose. I hope all you guys get better. this blog really helped me realize what i was getting into. thank you! I now understand that self control is not an option here and if I cant get controll im basically effed. Congrats, you may have saved a life.

I really hope that you all have true adhd. I thought I was and turned out that adderral was a nightmare for me. I was on it for six years and became addicted to it without realizing. Once I opened my eyes my world I once knew had been turned inside out. I ended up miss useing and lets just say the rest became very nasty. But the whole reason I started miss useing it was because the euphoria feeling you get started to slowly deterate. Were I was basically useing way to much more than my body could handle. So beware and use only if you really need it. Dont do as I did and use it to escape my reality. Thanks for reading and God Bless

I'm healthy workout 3 to 4 times weekly.I was diagnosed with adult dd. This Med has done nothing for me.I'm sleepy 20 minutes after taking first dose then I take number 2 it wakes me up. Still no concentration like everyone else has.I can't figure out for the life of me why students love this stuff. I does absolutely nothing for me.except dry mouth,low lidido, sweat like a pig.It does place me in a calm mood.Other than that Nothing.I've been on this stuff for about a year on and off. I have loads left over to show the doctor that I'm not a junkie and this doesn't work.I need something different maybe xr

I'm goin to be 18 this month and i have experienced quite a few diff drugs like coke,ecstasy,perks,weed,etc i never tried adderral in till i wanna say like about 1am this mornin? im not sure if i have ADD/ADHD or not but i do gotta say out of all the drugs i have tried i like adderral ALOT! I only took one 30mg adderral and its already 7:02am i am not tired at all and i feel great i would not say i'm addicted but i'm deff happier, i have spent legit four hours reading everyone's stories and i have to say i think some people r just ridiculous..... Don't take it if u cant handle it and if your gonna take it be smart about it don't ruin it for people who actually need it. I feel so much more focus then normal i still prefer weed but adderral makes me more relaxed before i took it i was depressed since i got some personal problems going on, but once i took that one pill i was good i sat up talking with my bestfriend about like my whole life storie which normally makes me upset but i just laughed it off. Honestly i think taking that one 30mg adderral was the best thing for me (DON'T JUDGE ME!!) i know i wont be stupid with it i know how much i could handle and will only stick to one 30mg at-least twice a week. I might actually need a prescription for it since i can't stay focus for the life of me and after taking adderral for the first time today i feel like i could focus so much better! time to check in with my doctor i think i found my cure. This is alot longer then i figured it would be but whatever thanks for taking your time to read this i guess.

Hi...hope someone will read this who might be able to relate and tell me what path I will have to go down to resolve this. I am seriously desperate. I have been married for 20 years, and I and 50 years old. My wife, whom I love dearly is 45 years and was diagnosed with ADHD. We had a wonderful 15 years together and raised a son who is brilliant and doing great in college....we also have a daughter that is now 7 years (yes, an unexpected addition). 6 years ago my wife went off of the 4 hour instant release ritilan which she used during the day sometimes to help her focus, and started a new drug..adderal. This drug I am convinced is ruining our marriage. She takes a 30mg time release pill once a day that releases for 24 hours. She is smart, articulate, focused...BUT with this new drug there suddenly came irritability, blaming me for your lack of accomplishment, resentment, highs and lows during the day, huge weight loss and she was already just a size 2; constant night owl behavior until 3 or 4 in the morning; distrust; controlling coversations to such an extent that I cannot interject and sometimes I just have to sit and listen for 20 minutes staight. She has so little patience as well. She is now angry about having to raise our little girl late in our marriage (I provide 9 hours of day care daily, pay all of our bills in full and work full time, and pay for a babysitter 3 nights a week and part of a weekend day...I also spend ALL my free time with my daughter and do house chores daily (laundry, cooking, yeard, cars, lunches, etc.) I feel like I am walking on glass with her, and I have to try and read her mood swings. She is not willing to see a therapist, Doctor or change medications...she feels I am sabotaging her and I am undermining her professional knowledge on ADHD. She is also smoking more cigerettes in a day than I have ever seen, and drinks at least 5 cups of coffee a day. On top of that she is wasting money now on lottery tickets daily. I guess I know the answer....she is becoming or already is an addict and I am desperate to save our marriage. The only book I have read is by Charles Gant on Ending your addiction now but I do not think my wife would even consider reading it. I love my wife, and I love my children....but I fear she is sometimes reacting so badly that she almost prefers a divorce...with divorce she gains freedom to have quiet uniterupted space all the time, and not have to help raise our daughter, and just be able to stay up all night, smoke, and sit on her computer and Ipod until dawn....every day! To calm down she is using weed. Can anyone tell me who to go see...I live near Boston. Bob

BEFORE READING THIS: I have Pretty extreme ADHD and am on an off cycle of adderall(2 Days off 2 days on) so dodnt mind the stream of conciousness writing style. I've been taking adderrall on and off for about 3 years now, ITS WICKED EFFECTIVE WHEN USED IN A PROPERLY IMPLEMENTED STRATEGIC ON/OFF CYCLE. AMERICA YAA!!! I was first prescribed it when i started college (CU mechanical engineering), my brother gave me some to try one day and to say the least the results made me shit myself(not literally) b/c it was like a temporary reprogramming of my brain( I HAVE WICKED ADHD AWESOME!) and i was like holy friggin shit i have alot of UNTAPPED CAPACITY that i am wasting so i went to my doctor and was kickin my feet like a motherfucker and hes like ya i always knew u were adhd its wicked obvious heres three scripts of 15mg XR adderall and i took it for the first half of the semester at clarkson and then switched to instant release 15 MG Adderall2x daily and was like ya word but my dad kept calling me at school and i never met him till i was 17 so i got all confused and fucked up and didnt do well in my classes b/c i wasnt focused on mechanical engineering b\c my brain was undeveloped(until about AGE 21 MY BRAIN MODIFIED ITSELF). But anywho, I am currently setting myself up for school at Georgia Tech in the fall for Aerospace Engineering and AFROTC(Gonna Get a Slot in flight school, officers program etc.), My past three years experience with adderall has overall been very good, minus the small bits of social scene modification that it produced, but the NEGATIVE SIDE EFFECTS have been offset by the accomplishment that i have had on it, FIRST OFF while going to school(just getting core creddits)I saved up mad money doing carpentry during the day and then I HAVE NEVER CHANGED OIL and i then lifted my 99 suburban, chugging adderall with energy drinks like a mad man, rebuilt the motor to make mad horsepower LEARNING EACH STEP BY MYSELF AS I WENT, THENNN last summer, before decidding on returning to school for Aerospace engineering, I got a job after teaching myself mechanics at a hotrod shop, and saved and built a second GEN ARMY GREEN 600HP 454 CAMARO 4SPEED and it was the MOST GRATIFYING THING I HAVE EVER DONE, AND WITHOUT ADDERALL I WOULD NOT HAVE HAD THE AUDACITY TO ACCOMOPLISH THIS. YES IT WAS HARD ON MY BODY A BIT, BUT BIG FRIGGIN DEAL THIS IS AMERICA THE LAND OF THE FREE BABY DETROIT STEEL AMERICAN MILITARY POWWER!!!? I would cycle it on and off according to my work/project schedule, YOU MUST PLAN TO EITHER RELAX AND DO NORMAL WORKLOAD, or TAKE IT AND GO FULL THROTTLE AHEAD BEING MILITARISTIC AND STOP AT NOTHING TO ACHIEVE YOUR OBJECTIVE!!! THE LAST 4 DAYS OF MY CAMARO BUILD I DIDNT SLEEP A WINK BUT WAS TOO AMPED UP ON THE PROJECT TO CARE, DROPPED IN THE MOTOR HOOKED UP THE DRIVETRAIN, and ON THE FOURTH MORNING AT 6AM I FIRED UP THE BIG BLOCK 600HP AND ROASTED MY TIRES AND THE COPS CAME NOISE COMPLAINT....THEY JUST ASKED ABOUT THE CAR, I WAS JACKED ON MONSTER AND ADDERALL AND DID ANOTHER BURNOUT FOR THEM....AWESOME!!!!!!! But anywho, what an amazing drug for the government to distribute, and in my opinion it was done in order to actually advance the united states as a whole, you gotta think big and go big, THATS WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT, however, in order to maximize your effectiveness utilizing adderall it requires a precision plan that achieves a balance in your life based on two things: Extreme Relaxation, and Extreme Productivity. My personal recommendation is to calculate your workload so that you take on 40-50 percent of your load jacking off 12-24 Hours on ADDERALL, sleep and take an offday between loads. The key is that on your offdays your objective must be setup for relaxtion, so the scheduling is very very important, music is key, good food, a beach run maybe, a movie etc., but light production is a breeze on these days, all you have to do is chill out to the tunes and flow with your chores, and NEVER QUESTION the no dose, NO IF BUT MAYBE revolving around taking it, 0 Dose, IT IS ABSOLUTELY IMPERATIVE TO YOUR LIFE OBJECTIVES AND MAX PRODUCTION LOADS that YOU TAKE NO ADDERALL ON THESE DAYS, SO SHUT UP YOUR BRAIN, AND ENJOY LIFE AND CHILL!!! MUSIC MOVIES FOOD FRIENDS CRUISING ETC. Must be used as components of your relaxation days setup as rewards for light workloads, so plan for these paramount days of rejuvination and balance. This is America, so Dream Big and DONT BE AFRAID TO GO HARD, GO BIG OR GO HOME BABY! So okay, you have a FULL SCRIPT OF ADDERALL OR BAG OF ADDERALL IN FRONT OF YOU, Set your Objective Blue Print and Timeline Next to you and decide on your On/Off Days, NO PARTIAL DOSE DAYS:READ: ON OR OFF DAYS!!! I use a mufffin tin to distribute the adderall fuel for the set days and label the slots, NEXT, YOU MUST GO OVER THE BLUEPRINT/TIMELINE of On/OFF Max Production Days in your head until it is forged like billet aircraft aluminum; easy to remember. So prioritize your goals, pic the big dogs/tasks for the POWER DAYS, and Precision plan your exact rewards and light productivity activies for the CHARGE UP DDAYS, BY THE WAY( THE CHARGE UP DAYS ARE THE ONES WHERE YOU REALIZE THE GENIUS OF YOUR ADDERALL IMPLEMENTATION AND THE TRUE POWER OF THE DRUG, THESE ARE THE DAYS YOU REAP THE BENEFITS, THE REAL FUN DAYS!!!!!

My girlfriend (16 years old) just recently took 2 20mg's of adderall that she got from her friend. She has no ADD or ADHD or anything. In the past we did weed, suboxone, synthetic, xanex, and triple c's together. (There might be a couple more but I don't remember.) She's done triple c's way more than I have. She never had a problem with any drug besides pills. She says they make her feel better than any other drug, but truth is..its ruining our relationship, and her life. We constantly fight over drugs(mainly just pills) and i don't know how much longer we can do this. I love her, but I can't keep watching her do this to herself and us. I know were young, but she seriously seems to have a problem.. Any advice? Brandiconvery123@yahoo.com

I've been on stimulant add meds since i was 8 years old. I was one of the first wave of children to be diagnosed with ADD...before then, I got held back in 1st grade because I would read and draw and day dream about unicorns (that's what I actually said when my mom asked me) and not do my work. It wasn't so bad my best friend also got held back, along with like 10 other kids...and we all had ADD. They also put me in a learning disorder class about 2 hours a week. This was not special ed, but for people with speech problems, and behavioral problems, hyperactivity, and dyslexia. The teacher loved me, and probably knew i wasn't supposed to be in there, but I enjoyed being her pet, and it was funny when she yelled at the really bad crazy kids in there.

I'm 30 now and I've been on every thing from Silert (it kept me up all night and scared me) to some funny green and pink pills...that made me sick to my stomach all the time (as a little kid I didn't know what stimulants did to your body)...but i excelled in school and did my chores with no problem, I played Nintendo AND played outside, read Stephen Kings IT at age 12, and was interested in and studied for fun everything from zoology, microbiology ,to astronomy. I was on Ritalin until the age of 19, but in HS I quit taking it for a year, because I was being rebellious , and my grades dropped so bad I had to graduate early by getting my GED. When I turned 19, my doctor (who also had add and was an add specialist) gave me a med called Medidate...it was the best medication I had ever been on...it and provigil. Unfortunately these are no longer available, and I was booted off the states prescription program because I didn't do something retarded like become a teen mother...basically what they were saying is if you make rational decisions and give a flip about your future you have no problems.



This was back in 2003 before the economy took a nose dive...I was taking 5 classes as a freshman in college, (i got all As) and had two jobs just to keep an apartment that was unfurnished and that I never really saw. My stimulant adderol saved my life back then. When the lovely Tennessee government decided to pull the plug on Tenncare for anyone that wasn't terminally ill (understandable) or who hadn't popped out an illegitimate child--or several (not understandable) My grades went down the drain...from a's to f's ...i lost all my scholarships, my job as a biology tutor and my chance at an ivy league in the future. I got fs mainly for not turning stuff in and poor attendance....I couldn't sit still enough to focus, or I was falling asleep all the time...forgetting times that classes started...and one semester -I kid you not- I didn't even know what my professors name was...I slid my term paper under another professors door who's name I'd been calling him for 5 months. I got a c in that class when I should've got an A as that paper was worth 1/3 of my grade. I was so humiliated and ashamed when I learned what happened I couldn't bear to tell him. motivation and lost interest in everything...left to daydream myself into oblivion. as a form of excapism. thats me ...I'm either an A person... or a 0 person. in 2008 I was put on academic probation, and couldnt afford not to work in the hours I spent at school.

I couldn't afford my meds ...it was hell...so i started buying them illegally from people. To this day I am not ashamed to say so. You do what you have to, I blame the federal medical assistance programs who constantly think that young single adults and married people with no children cannot be poor , and have 500.00 to 2,000.00 just laying around the house to spend on generic add meds each month (not including my zoloft and bipolar meds)So it was buying off the street for almost 5 years...I only took what I needed and didn't abuse... when I couldn't find adderol I bought prescription diet pills from a kind co-worker ...not the same thing but better than nothing. I wasn't scared of being caught either..if i went to jail, I'd go with a smug look on my face like some kind of social justice martyr...and wouldn't be afraid to tell them everything. (except punk out the kind people who sold it to me)not that I went around trying to get caught though. I was not medicated on anything, not depression, not bipolar, I was a wreck. I was a full time sever which I hated so much I didn't even know how much I hated it until I left for a retail offer after 3 years. I was very good at it too, made good money...but I blocked out how much i hated it, I still literally have server nightmares to this very day. every day I felt like I was one hairs breath from insanity. I felt like It took all my strength to not fall to pieces.

In 2009,eventually I was able to find an affordable med (90.00 on a servers salary...but i could still swing it) I still didnt have insurance and had to pick and choose which med to get I'd be alert than happy...because I'll be really depressed if I cant get work done. That drug was *shudder* ...methylfenidate. Oh, it was crap crap crap... it made me tired like a zombie , and sick to my stomach and irritable which is very bad when you work with the public. Plus I couldn't afford my dosage (120 mg a day and as needed if heavy mental load..like exams and short project deadlines at wrk) i was down to less than one fourth that...like 40mg a day And speaking of bad meds ...dont even get me started on Stratira...that crap should be rounded up and blasted into the sun. I almost fell asleep standing up while waiting in line at the DMV (true story) it didn't help with my add AT ALL. I cant believe the FDA is considering replacing all the stimulant meds with that waste of pill coating. (so I've heard from some anarchist cookbook wanna be website that I don't really trust anyway)...but i still think what if

2011, me and my fiance eloped just so I could get on his city insurance. We had lived together for 3 years and had already planned on having a wedding as soon as we had the money...but it didn't happen as i was a complete wreck at that time I had forgotten what contentment was like, let alone happiness , and it hurt to smile I hadnt done it in so long. my mother in law had never forgiven me to this day at robbing her of her only child's wedding. I am know on all my meds , and can see a shrink and therapist once a month. Life is pretty peachy...and when I smile I dont fake it. even after going through all that crap, I still remained an optimist, always looking ahead at the future, though i was very bitter towards the Tenn. medical assistance program, or any assistance program for that matter, and companies that refused to offer employees benefits that actually covered more than 2 check ups a year. And Yes , I'm on my 120mg a day of adderol, which is generic so its not time released like medidate, but its definitely the 2nd best thing and it does what its supposed to do without making me tired and sick ... (not to mention the very pleasant side effect of weight loss!) and that's all I ask. But....there's still problems with getting my adderol. And I'll tell you what, im going to leave those for another day because there's enough to write a novel. some of the comments I get are hilarious and some quite offensive. Will say that for y'all out there that have trouble getting your adderol because of shortages...check your neighborhood...if its primarly white lower/middle (me) to upper/upperclass (Paula Deen *seriously*) ...youre not going to get it. I live on an inter-coastal island so this really sucks, but ive found that if you go to a poorer part of town, they always have them...because those folks that live there dont mess around with piddly adderol... if the people that are junkies want to speed they go strait to coke or crack.

well, that's my story...I'm not asking for pity or sympathy...because i hate that crap. I'm not trying to make people feel sorry for me, nor am I one of those chicks that pulls Oh-poor-me for attention...that's so annoying and stupid. But I'm NOT going to lie and sugarcoat it and say it didn't suck ...because it did. That's how I really felt, no exaggerations, just the truth. And all the trouble I've had with my ADD these 22 years since I've been diagnosed. I've come to accept this disease as a part of me. It is what it is.

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I cant STAND people don't even have add that abuse this drug that some of us NEED to function...especially us that have been on them since add was recognized. We have careers to keep, masters degrees to get, and families to raise and we depend on those amphetamine add pills. thanx to you we've had to deal with shortages driving sometimes out of state to get our prescriptions wasting valuable time and gas, and get profiled, and lied to by walgreens and CVS pharmacists because we look suspicious because we have a high dosage and have a bad case of acne flare up that week and not to mention the eye rolling and dirty looks, and smart-a$$ comments. If you have an addiction, I am sympathetic towards your stuggle my brother got out of rehab for oxycodon, and xanex abuse a couple of years ago and though sober still fights cravings. as long as your doing something about it...there's no reason you should be ashamed. I even understand people using a couple adderol ever so often to ace that exam thats 1/3 of your grade. School is important...I've been there done that. I wouldnt sell my meds to them, but I dont judge them for that.

I know you don't care, and I don't care THAT you don't care...but if all stimulant add meds are illegal and we're all forced to be on crap like stratiera its your fault..and i hope your withdraws drive you coocoo-for-coco-puffs insane.

thats just my two cents I wanted to get off my shoulders.

My experience is exactly the same as the first post. I take 30 a day.I am happy when I take it.very depressed when I don't. got a little ahead of myself in days past accidentally because sometimes I take the 30 in 4 quarters sometimes 15mg at a time anyway. I decided I wouldn't take any yesterday because of this and had finished doing chores around the house. That is when my problems began ringing like a fire alarm maybe suppressed feelings because normal life has been difficult. These are the same problems but when I take aderall I definitely don't hyper-focus on those things and am able to stay busy enough.I sleep fine when taking 30mg.would probably function incredible on a higher dose but the doctor has limits.One day I accidentally took too much and had excelled on the piano.in one day I was playing notes and figuring out songs and I never could play more than Mary had a little lamb before.but then on a normal dose Im not as motivated. And when I do play its not the same as that day.Also my libido has is improved. Now that said,If I don't take it,Im afraid of the depression and crying. Not sure if that's the medication or my problems and challenges of normal life.Wife left recently. Wasn't taking any medication for the past couple years cause I was gonna try to manage without that's when i began making bad choices and not handling the separation well.So I began to fall apart without medication..My house was getting filthy.I wanted to give up.Then I decided to see the doctor and get back on the meds.Life overall has improved for me.My house is always clean. Im happier.I dont do well cold turk with none on a day.I know like all drugs this has a crash.I sleep well but dont get hungry much.Probably should eat a little more.So I have 2 choices paralyzed with fear and scattered thinking.or function almost incredibally but pontential sadness. Its funny it is definitly true about if you take to much it will makes me you sleepy.Anyways.Those are my expiriences.

I am someone who loves aderall if i can stay in my house for weeks and organize things or have a lot of data entry to do at work. I hate the high - I love the not eating and the way I can focus on one task at a time. I took Topomax and Lithium before but it did not help me focus like a 30 mg of aderall will do. The problem is when I take one I want to finish all my projects - so I battle with it. I have tried to fix my ADD other ways, and I have a job that works with me,,,but if I am not on it I cannot do paperwork. I am in hell. I just want to vent - I cannot tell anyone. It is my dirty secret.